i did not go to school today, the comfort of my electric blanket was too great. i worked all day on my papers and made some significant progress 
i feel like i've been here for years, and i don't think this month will end. i'm going to run through the nearest department store in an attempt to departmentalize my life, my emotional baggage no doubt...
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i feel like i've been here for years, and i don't think this month will end. i'm going to run through the nearest department store in an attempt to departmentalize my life, my emotional baggage no doubt... Read More
today was odd, and its not over, i got up and started on my work, but then i went to visit mum and she got all passive agressive and then my sister came over, we were supposed to be celebrating her compleation of a dentist assistant program or something, but then mom got all crazy, i'm just glad that battel is over, but this can...
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darklord666:
With the coming of the dark winter comes cave fever. Picking over the stores we have set aside to sustain us 'til springtime we argue and fight over scraps, heads filled with, "if only I had worked harder or prepared more throughly."
Ritual was used to equalize the pressure of confinement. Now as we gather in our cave/homes, glutted with our modern Amerikan indulgences, we pick at each other like scabs. Pushing one another to limits of discomfort, pain and tears, our rituals provide no respite since they are empty and devoid of significance.
Parents, consumed with guilt, bare their teeth and unsheath their claws, slashing at their progeny without thought. The ordeal continues until the Tryptophan, Zoloft and Paxil do their work and only the echo of infomercials is heard: a murmur from the home entertainment center.
Seek solace in your bold spirit and know the Aina still lives, it's Mana is potent, and always within your reach. Hang tough little sister.
Best wishes for the Solstice.
[Edited on Nov 17, 2003 11:02AM]
Ritual was used to equalize the pressure of confinement. Now as we gather in our cave/homes, glutted with our modern Amerikan indulgences, we pick at each other like scabs. Pushing one another to limits of discomfort, pain and tears, our rituals provide no respite since they are empty and devoid of significance.
Parents, consumed with guilt, bare their teeth and unsheath their claws, slashing at their progeny without thought. The ordeal continues until the Tryptophan, Zoloft and Paxil do their work and only the echo of infomercials is heard: a murmur from the home entertainment center.
Seek solace in your bold spirit and know the Aina still lives, it's Mana is potent, and always within your reach. Hang tough little sister.
Best wishes for the Solstice.
[Edited on Nov 17, 2003 11:02AM]
been working all day, cant work any more, bain is all mushy, 
and im still not done, i have to go back to the library tomarrow. hopefully i will finish then, this shit is due on friday,
and im still not done, i have to go back to the library tomarrow. hopefully i will finish then, this shit is due on friday, 
helm:
brains are supposed to be mushy. if they were hard, zombies would need really strong teeth to eat them.
last night i went to see elf. it was good in a i'm 11 and1/2 and i still write letters to santa even though i don't believe in him sorta way. i also had dinner and a good time wich are always nice to have, i need to finish my papers!!!! so with out another seconds delay, i'm gonna look at the girly pics and...
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today is friday, i shouldn't have eaten pizza for luch, how do you make that yucky feeling of ingesting too much cheese and bread go away. i'm supposed to have a hot date tonight, but i secretly think he dislikes me and sees me mostly out of habbit than out of intrest. but its still nice not to have to go alone to the movies.
mikael:
alcohol works for me. Numbs the stomach area. Coffee and water will help flush you out.
horrible nigthmare, they seem to be getting worse. this makes it hard for me to sleep. i think i'm going insane. dad always said you let yourself have nightmares, you just tell yourself not to have them, then they will go away, this one involved a wedding, and me digging a grave, my sister was standing outside the grave yelling and then i looked up...
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storey:
Do something about this now. Dont wait and hope it clears up. Try everything until something works. This is the best advice that i can give you. I only say this because ive had nothing but nightmares for the past 3 years and it only gets worse. I dont want you to have to go through the crap that I have to put up with. I only sleep for 2 or 3 hours at a time becuase of my dreams. They always end up with me being killed in some way, shape, or form. Im sorry i dont have anymore suggestions since i cant even help myself in this matter. I hope you feel better.
mikael:
Analyze the meanings. Take the frightening images as metaphor, not fact. That way fear shouldn't enter in to it.
today is wednessday, i feel yucy, i have to take geology over again, but thats ok, sometimes, you have to take a class four times just to get a credit. i wish this part of my life would be done with, and i could be in some other part, this thought in itself is very amusing, but i'm not laughing. this whole perdiciment would be...
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storey:
Know that you are not alone in this feeling. For my mental state has become comprable to the sound of an aluminum rake being draged across an iron plate........or possibly the taste that you experience when you chew on tin foil.
i was right, yesterday was bad, i didn't have enough time to walk to school, so i decided to drive and park illeagally, which resulted in the longest day in the history of the world ever, (i'm so dramatic). i found a ride to the comapany that toedmy car and payed the fine, but my ride had droped me off thinking that my car would...
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googused:
http://chalkhills.org/
listen and learn...
Who's afraid of Virginia Woolf is not about bad relationships. It is about young love and old love and the passion that fuels both. Watch again and don't think about you... think about them. There lies true love - games and all.
[Edited on Nov 11, 2003 2:48AM]
listen and learn...
Who's afraid of Virginia Woolf is not about bad relationships. It is about young love and old love and the passion that fuels both. Watch again and don't think about you... think about them. There lies true love - games and all.
[Edited on Nov 11, 2003 2:48AM]
coconono:
actually I'm not a big Peaches fan. Their stuff is mostly shock value and no substance. as for the Moldy Peaches:
they fucking rock. hands down.
and thanks for sending the rain my way
*grumbles about down radio towers*
they fucking rock. hands down.
and thanks for sending the rain my way
*grumbles about down radio towers*
days like this i miss hawaii sooooo much. its cold, i don't have a parking pass, so i have to walk to school. i can see what the h1 highway looks like, i can smell the plumeria. i feel like one of those people in the royal carribian cruse commercials, trying to reacclimate to this shitty midwest life. 
helm:
I like the midwest, but than I've spend 99% of my life here. It tends to get really cold though.
Just curious, why would you leave Hawaii to go to school in IL? I think I'd have stuck with Hawaii, or at least SoCal.
Just curious, why would you leave Hawaii to go to school in IL? I think I'd have stuck with Hawaii, or at least SoCal.
storey:
Its beginning to get cold here but thats a good thing cuz i like winter. I guess i'm lucky since my school has free parking. But the downside is that you have to get to school really early or you dont get a spot.
I too share koolaids curiosity. Why did you leave? Are you on the run perhaps?
I too share koolaids curiosity. Why did you leave? Are you on the run perhaps?
today was not good. i had lots of fun and hung out with my super cool cousin and watched the game at my uncles.
i used to collect fetish comics, like bitch in heat, well i have most of the bondage faries collection, but i was missing a few, and then today, i went to a shope i'd never been to before and found some...
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i used to collect fetish comics, like bitch in heat, well i have most of the bondage faries collection, but i was missing a few, and then today, i went to a shope i'd never been to before and found some...
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helm:
You can definitely half ass your way through college.
Bondage Fairies always frightened me. Fairies having sex with animals and whatever else is really, really disturbing.
Bondage Fairies always frightened me. Fairies having sex with animals and whatever else is really, really disturbing.
hornitos:
one time i bought a comic book that was in a black plastic bag. .
with no information on it. it turned out to be some chix w/ dicks thing called 'black kiss' i think. . but i liked it so i bought another one. . i wonder where those are and if my son has seen them going through all my comic books! i've probably said this before but i used to think i had a motel room fetish. . but then i realized. .i was just homeless
with no information on it. it turned out to be some chix w/ dicks thing called 'black kiss' i think. . but i liked it so i bought another one. . i wonder where those are and if my son has seen them going through all my comic books! i've probably said this before but i used to think i had a motel room fetish. . but then i realized. .i was just homeless