he called!!! i can't believe he called, i thought, " i have my designs on him" and this will work, and i can tell this will work, i feel so crazy, but he called!!!
like i kept thinking, i should just forget about it!! but then, in my brain, my irrational female brain, i was thinking, no, i reeeely reeeely like him. like alot, then he called, and we talked, and he felt better, i could tell, about knowing the rest of the situation, god, i don't know why this happens, i remember when i met aaron, i thought the same thing, I really really liked him, and tim, and so it's nice to know i still have....whatever it is that makes um keep commin back for more.
anywho...
soo i don't have to head to michigan tomarrow, in fact, i don't have to do shit tomarrow. there is a party for jim, for his birthday, i thought i should go. i don't know what to get him. we had a long talk today, about how he always feels the need to give me shit, or put me in my place, i don't know if this is because he is a man with a disability who is trying to assert his power, or if he's just being an asshole, he doesn't have any male p.a.s and he doesn't really need us for anything, other than "shit work", we cook, clean, drive him around, i have to wonder if that makes him feel big. he's pretty functional on his own, i think he just likes having women around.
i went out tonight with a girl from class, and katie, and katie actually had fun!!
this has never happened before. we went to the pub, and had dinner, and a few beers, it was nice.
sleepy now, gotta clean my room!
i can't believe he called.
like i kept thinking, i should just forget about it!! but then, in my brain, my irrational female brain, i was thinking, no, i reeeely reeeely like him. like alot, then he called, and we talked, and he felt better, i could tell, about knowing the rest of the situation, god, i don't know why this happens, i remember when i met aaron, i thought the same thing, I really really liked him, and tim, and so it's nice to know i still have....whatever it is that makes um keep commin back for more.
anywho...
soo i don't have to head to michigan tomarrow, in fact, i don't have to do shit tomarrow. there is a party for jim, for his birthday, i thought i should go. i don't know what to get him. we had a long talk today, about how he always feels the need to give me shit, or put me in my place, i don't know if this is because he is a man with a disability who is trying to assert his power, or if he's just being an asshole, he doesn't have any male p.a.s and he doesn't really need us for anything, other than "shit work", we cook, clean, drive him around, i have to wonder if that makes him feel big. he's pretty functional on his own, i think he just likes having women around.
i went out tonight with a girl from class, and katie, and katie actually had fun!!
this has never happened before. we went to the pub, and had dinner, and a few beers, it was nice.
sleepy now, gotta clean my room!
i can't believe he called.
well, that explains the tennis elbow
wait till you see my hair cut!
im jittery with anticipation--is it short? no, dont tell me, i wanna be surprised......is it short?
yr still hung up on this guy? i gotta meet him. but i swear, if i do meet him and he's any kinda dork, i'll never let you live it down... because that's the kind of friend i am
katie sounds like such a fucking downer--why you still try is beyond me.
i'm kinda confused as to what transfired between you and him to make him feel bad?
then he called, and we talked, and he felt better.
i've gotta headache.
[Edited on Jun 09, 2005 10:18PM]
with pure kindness
Foz