phoolsfire

i keep forgetting what day it is, i need school to start again.

i'm an idiot, i went to peoria tonight with the intention of hanging out with some friends, but then i forgot my phone and had no way of reaching them....so this is what its come to, without technology, i can't interact with people?

there was a big send off party for my mom in bartonville tonight, i always get lost when i go there sooo today was no exception. i was like ten minutes late, cause i knew i'd get lost i left like three hours early, anyway, this little party just reinforced my mother's day realization... i never ever want kids. i came back and went looking for this book that this guy said was good, and i couldn't find it, so i'm gonna have to go back to peoria this weekend, and hijack the library.

i just discovered this great band, and i don't say stuff like that everyday. i mean this is a band that i really really like. i feel stupid for not having heard of them sooner. maybe i'll make my triumphant return to the world of punk rock, or whatever the kids are calling it these days. i don't if i could go to a show, i'm not sure i could hang with all the cool punks, and not get my ass kicked like in highschool for beinga poser, maybe someone could give me some "cool"lessons, or i could always watch slc punk for a quick review.

i'm having some problems with my relationship, and i don't really know what to do. i don't really feel like talking about it, but its not getting any better. i've been thinking about saying something, but waht do you say?
i don't think i ever gave the impression that any decision that i make in life is permenent. thats just how i am, i don't like being in one place for more than a year, i certinaly don't want to "settle down", so i have to ask mysel once again...
melissa, ....what are you doing? what am i doing?