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i can't believe i slept till 9am this morning, i didn't get up till like 1030 cause i wanted to see if i could get more sleep.... nope, i just lied there and did nothing for like an hour and a half. perfectly good wast of time.

i interviewed my granfather yesterday, that was awkard, he now has doubts about my abilities as a student, because i couldn't understand what the hell he was sayin. so i kept fucking up the time reference..."ok so that was in 53 that you came to peoria or 1950 that you started working at methodist?" at any rate, he gave me a roll of quarters, something he's done my whole life at any occasion where the happenstance should allow us to communicate. we talked about the war and death and all the stuff that bothers someone whose old and just lost a spuose. i felt bad, i'm no barbra walters n shit, but i'll be damn if the old mad didn't tear up when i asked him what he saw for the future of the sierra legacy.. (like were some great family dynasty or somthin). lets just say it was a huge helping of guilt. i didn't know he had 12 brothers and sisters... thats crazy , and he attributed my grandmother ability to concive 12 times as a true attribute of her faith to the catholic church... i just thought they were crazy sex addicts.

at any rate, my aunt mary will be over tonight, to finish up the last of the family interviews, this i am not looking forward to. as bad a i felt after grandpas interview, i'm sure my aunt mary will intenionally lay on the guilt and undermine my ability to do anything...we'll see