some people are so compleatly in sync with the way that systems work, its hard to spend time listening to them breath, then you go back and its like you feel the very recessing of understanding. the longer i stay here the more i realize i cannot stay here. i could never be a wife or a mother or a teacher or anything that involves giving of myself. the longer i stay here the more i wish to be in sync with the systems, i feel like i have lost so much by coming here, i feel like i've started all over again.
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yeah i have lived in chicago 3 times an mioved home everytime,home being where ever me an ex wife moved to,so yeah peoria sucks the life out of you, lots of bands play the east peoria legion hall,lots of good underground bands.so yeah,thats cool somthin to do on a friday night.but fuck all that i have sights on big city again an as soon a s my hell hole house is sold imoutta here.we should hook up an get buzzed!