phoolsfire

"jodie wears her hat even though it hasn't rained i three days".....

i've been with the same man type for over a year now, and tonight i was just realizing this when it occured to me that i used to like sex alot more than i do now, he didn't listen to me then and still doesn't. he calls me and tells me often of his days and woes, and i always do my best to offer support. about a year ago i was going through a tough time and i was crying.. his comforting response was that "crying is an antisocial behavior, if you want help you shouldn't cry" since then i don't tell him much except maybe the amusing antedotes about my daily frustrations wich are paradoized to be funny and cute.
how do you get away. i know he doesn't love me. i've dated every guy in my age group in my postal district and i always end up back in the same place. my life is a runnning joke. i don't want to be with him anymore. but when he calls i always seem to answer the phone, i always seem to say "its ok you can put your dick here tonight, you can unload you seminal fluid and emotional baggage on me and i will like it"
My birthday is this weeekend, and i'm having a hard time with this. i don't know what i was expecting, but i obviously won't get it.