someone hit me on the head with an idiot stick, im such a dingaling. last night i was invited to a party and i had to turn into the asshole that had too much to drink. then i said some really nasty stuff and did some really stooopid things and now i'm such an idiot. i can make promises to not do this kind of thing again but that would only lead to gross disapointment when it happens. usually i drink too much and go to sleep. for some reason last night i just couldn't stop being yuccky. i feel guilt and need to attend another aa meeting. maybe i can just rent a movie instead. 