phoenixxx13

ok.... so ive been bummed for quite some time now... alot of things have been goin on....

my parents left for italy a few weeks ago... and i stayed here for my bf. Im starting to wish that i had went with them. But either way i would be torn. If i had went i would miss my bf back here and all my good friends, since i stayed i miss my mom and i missed out on the experience... yeah i can visit and whatever... i dunno...

then i havent been feeling very confident with my bf. Like i dont feel like im pretty, or sexy enough.... i dunno, i just feel overall unconfident... and it may not seem like a big deal, but it tears me down alot.

Also feeling like i dont have that comfort that i need sucks too. Like i have no family of my own here... i have friends families and stuff but that will never feel as good as being comforted and supported by ur family. like i try to talk to my bf about stuff that bothers me, but he doesnt know what to say and its just silence on the other end. i know he tries, but in the end it ends up making me more upset that i cant really turn to my bf..... ugh....help!!!