phoenixrage

Soooo my thoughts today....I kept asking myself today. What can I do to push myself to be a better person in life such as striving towards my goals both physical and mental.. then it hit me. Keep going backwards which I don't know why i do that allot and realized to myself. Im a boss already so at work my mindset is there but when it comes to personal...FREAK OUT!!! I don't know why but I get this feeling over me like ok...I could do this..I can maybe possibly be with someone then the back of my head is like...o hell no girl you been hurt to many times or...do you really want to hurt this person because they don't know your crazy mind works. Lol I can go on about this...just hits me allot. Why hurt people.. why does our mindset go that way. Granted can't see into the future but.....I'm going to try my damndest to make each day count...Squirrel!!!!!