phoenix383

friend lists on facebook really are as phony as they come. people add and add friends to have the biggest list but in the end you can post some thing list you want to die or are really having a hard time and what is the result. some people will pretend to care ,some will call you dramatic and the other half of the list will never even know because feeds are so clogged with adds and other worthless crap. then there is the friends that say they have your back and may know them for years but given the chance show there true colors and sell you out . By that I mean will lie to you or get what they can out of you and cast you aside. Now there is a rare few people in your circle that may have honor and truly have your back ,but those are hard to come by in todays world. Me I lost all drive to care about life and my future long ago. I wake up and ask why I woke up again to get through the day as quick as possible.pain and depression never go away, theres just brief moments that distract you from it but as they are brief they are fast and you return to the dark room known as your mind . while I have not reached the final door to exit this life yet, I move closer every day. few things keep me from finding that door but much like every thing eventually it will open . my mind is a dark place that light can not reach. while writing this probably will not help me it gives insight to a world never known