My name is Dan. I am 21 years old. I love cats and indian food. I can talk about why I love Radiohead for an hour straight. Then I can talk about why i love Kanye West for another hour. And so on and so forth.
I enjoy reading. I occasionally enjoy writing when the inspiration hits me. I love listening to music, thinking about... Read More
You actually purchased Lightroom? My god, that is ambitious. Im a total pirate, haha. I couldn't afford those programs (CS4 in particular) even if I sold most of the things in my apartment.
All my self-shot sets and portraits are with a timer and tripod. So I keep having to run back and forth. But thats ok. Makes everything feel a bit more turn of the century. Hehe.
Now that school is done for the term I'll have more time to be here, especially if the weather keeps on sucking as much as it is right now. From the 1st of July I'll be gone again for quite a while. Going hiking, faaar away from the internets, and then to the island where the internet at the place I'm staying is too slow to use. It'll be just the kind of break I need, because no matter how much I've kept off the internet to get my essays done in time I've still been stuck infront of the computer for most of May.
Whats keeping you away? Work, choice?
^^ Or what I rather mean to ask is, is the reason you're not renewing your membership because you feel this is stealing time awat from more important things? Or just that you as a person get nothing out of being here anymore?
nice photos
make me want to move.
and that guy really is awesome. ..looks-wise ofcourse.
anyway, the movie is great. it was really enjoyable and very funny. yes. all those references and lame jokes, WIN!
Anyone wanna start an a capella singing group in NYC with me? I miss singing in choir and barbershop quartet and all that jazz. And i just think the sound of voices harmonizing is so nice. We could do interpretations of modern songs if we'd like, but i have no real preference of what kind of material we do as long as it's moderately challenging... Read More
yeah, you definitely need to carry a bag with you if you want to carry water with you. i've tried hitching my water bottle to my belt with a carabiner but it's really annoying - swings into my hip and all, yanno? ha.
i've not drank much well water in my life. i remember drinking it at my grandfather's house when i was a kid, and my poo was green. i was concerned but apparently that's healthy, or so said my mother.
I think it was the largest earth worm in the world. But I can't remember where it lived, if it was in South Americas rain forrest (sp?) or in Southern Africa.. Anyhow I'm pretty stoked that it's not anywhere near me.
Lately I've been taking a lot of random everyday pictures with film-cameras. It has made me feel a lot more easy going about taking pictures and also helped me realize what kind of photography I like to do the most. Which is intimate, spontaneous shots making the most of available light. I used to worry that I HAD to learn studio lighting one day to "become" a "real" photographer, but I've realized that there is no such need over the last year. It all depends on what you want to portray I guess, and spontenaity (?) that turns into something beautiful is what I'd like to get better and better at.
I haven't even visited. But i'm tired of being here and from what I hear about Seattle, it seems like my kind of place. The music scene is definitely way more my style. So this time next year, I'm moving.
Either there, or... Read More
rut rut rut
I need money. Need to stop making irresponsible spending decisions. Need to cook more often and eat less cereal. Need to get a cat, but can't afford to have one. Need to move out west. Need to stop thinking that moving to a cool new town will solve the same old personal issues i've always had. Need to find the inspiration i... Read More
yay for considering your consumption choices. AND. have you tried a french press at home? if you measure the coffee out and put the right amount in, let it sit for the right amount of time, etc., it's always amazing.
I have a swollen bump on the roof of my mouth that's been bothering me since I got up yesterday morning. It was really distracting yesterday, as drinking, sipping, chewing and any of a number of other common actions would apply pressure to it and induce pain. But now it's gotten even MORE swollen and the pain is at the point where it woke me... Read More
I'm going through my entire digital photo collection from the last like three or four years (there's over 12,000 photos here) and it's just amazing what old photos can bring back. It makes me even sadder now. i feel like my happy days are behind me. I never feel like taking photos. i used to be so curious, so ambitious, so experimental. Now i have... Read More
I'm pretty glad that all the photos from _way_ back have been lost or at least removed from my computer. Its just one less thing to get nostalgic over. Although even photos from like a year ago gets me thinking... I've noticed that the photos, even recent ones, where I'm really happy doing something great is always far away from home and nowhere near University. Wonder what that should tell me..
It's wonderful to remember when you first fall inlove with a band/music piece. Like the smells, the weather, the things around.. the day that accompanied it.
I'm discovering that the guitar player from Incubus is pretty fucking rad. Currently, I am learning a bunch of tunes off Morning View and loving riffs like the ones in "Just A Phase"
Her movements are creepily natural. But no matter how much this stuff creeps me out, I still think it would be effin cool to have one of those vacuum robots. Just sayin'.
My depression is evolving. It is taking on a new form and a new tone.
Instead of self-loathing and a need to numb I am finding nihilism. I am really starting to believe that absolutely nothing matters. I spend more and more time thinking about the fact that sooner or later I'm going to be dead. And once I'm dead, everything I will have thought... Read More
thank you so much for stopping by. first i wanna reply to your blog entry.
you dont need to think about life and dead this way. i used to think about dead so many times, and i wrote really so many poems about dead and people who are dying. it was pretty hard times for me. i had to get those feelings out of me. so i wrote those poem. i am not able to show them to you, because they are wrote in czech language. i wanted die soo many times. i wanted die young so the people would remember me young and pretty... i did o many things. and then i had car crush, and when i ran from the car and my backbone hurt me so much. my boyfriend was crying and hold my hand, and he keeps saying: "honey, please, dont die... dont left me.." and this time i knew that this wasnt my time.. and i am told him "i am not dying..." i knew it.. i think that you will found when your time will come.. so you should enjoy your life as much as possible. for example - i believe in reincarnation, so i am trying my best in this life. i know how i died in my last life... and also i believe that every thing in the world must happened, if you will skip it, it will happened another time in your life. everything has its own reason
and now for your message under my blog.
i tried to find happiness so much time before i tried antidepressants for the first time. and i was pretty sad the most time in my life. since i was on primary school. then i met my psychiatrist for the first time and i was so happy to met her. i dont like pills at all. and i have many friends who realize that i am taking antidepressants and then told me that its evil and i have to try something more natural. but i dont think that i am so brave to try it without antidepressants. sometimes i miss some of the pills. i did it few times, because i though that i can beat it without pills.. but then i was mad, angry, bad and crazy... i was crying and kicking around and was bad to my loved ones..
about the running to new york - sometime i have feeling that i have to run away somewhere really far away and starts again till i still have some time...
hey, you are the same age as me, and also you are libra, i think that we have something in common...
nice photos
All my self-shot sets and portraits are with a timer and tripod. So I keep having to run back and forth. But thats ok. Makes everything feel a bit more turn of the century. Hehe.
Now that school is done for the term I'll have more time to be here, especially if the weather keeps on sucking as much as it is right now. From the 1st of July I'll be gone again for quite a while. Going hiking, faaar away from the internets, and then to the island where the internet at the place I'm staying is too slow to use. It'll be just the kind of break I need, because no matter how much I've kept off the internet to get my essays done in time I've still been stuck infront of the computer for most of May.
Whats keeping you away? Work, choice?