phenomenater

im so upset. im so mad and upset. why does it have to be like this why?

john lennon once said all you need is love.....and i thought it was true, but it just doesnt seem that way

what about personality, what about compatibility, what about the past, what about the future, what about your friends and family telling you to be strong and that this is the right thing for you, what about all that.

im mad at myself, im mad at everyone....
im mad that i cant change him and i cant change me
im mad that he was brought up differently
im mad that he doesnt go to school
im mad that im making him so sad
im mad that hes making me so sad
im mad that everyone else is getting ready to go on a fun trip to paris and im going to be here alone
im mad that i dont have power over other peoples actions,
and im mad that no matter how much i write im still not feeling better


i still havent gotten any sleep, i still feel sick, i still havent done my schoolwork.....im still miserable. im fucking miserable.


there are so many things he could do....he just wont. and he should have to for me, he should want to do them for himself....god im fucking sad.