phenomenater

im so fucking confused. im not a bad person, im really not. i just like to be really nice to people,i love to love people. maybe i am too nice. maybe i am a pushover....but i hate to see people unhappy. i hate to see people dying...alone. it makes me really sad. so many people were dying today at the hospital....so much unfinished buisiness, so many doctors that didnt care about them....its just sad. Its sad and im confused. oh well, im going to berkely so that should be fun at least.

i gave my first injections today. subcutaneous....pretty easy. i gave insulin and lovenox....it was alot easier than i thought it would be. especially since my patient was a crazy homeless guy who was missing a foot.

well, i guess i dont know what else to write....i could say so many things, but they will probably all be wrong....so many mixed messages.

well santa barbara was really fun and i had a really great time. thinkin about the good times we had, and why they had to end....hahah sorry random social d quote that means alot. then theres that ultra butthurt song that ive had stuck in my head all day. i am a rock, i am an island....its so fucking emo. but i like it. its almost laughable.

"Because a rock feels no pain (tear, sniff) and an island.....never.......cries."


ahahahahahaha i love it .... haha. ha. ha. ...