phedre

I may have made a bed with you
But I wont fucking lie in it
Ass in the air, waiting for you
To fucking rape me for all Im worth
You can hit it from behind
But I dont take it in the ass
So just fucking watch where
Youre trying to put yourself
Because maybe you shouldnt be there
Or in my life at all

Im tired of reaching out
To get slapped away
Im tired of putting myself out there for you
To simply cast that look of mild disregard upon me
Like Im just a bitch who came
And spilled my cup of wine
But it was hardly overflowing, was it?
So I had to do something
To make myself and you believe
That this was worthwhile

You make me horribly, insanely depressed
And Id like to go out and buy a bottle
To just drown my fucking sorrows in
Until I dont know I exist
Much less that Im on some plane of existence with you
And that youre taking me for all Im worth
And leaving not a drop behind
For me to call my own

I cant even call you my own

But maybe I dont really want to
If this is how youre gonna fucking be