I have too much boy drama in my life. Which is why I truly hope Asha makes good on her proposal to me. That would make my life beautiful.
Somebody slap a sticker on my forehead that says issues
See, I used to thrive on that angsty will-they won't-they tortured drama. But well, I was 13. I've outgrown being feed by that, and finding some whacked-out comfort in it. Now I'm just tired.
The person I knew for so long as my soulmate is...different. And things are...complex. Everything has changed. And no, I'm not with him right now. But he finally wants to be with me, and I'm so over it. (see "I lost my virginity...")
And I'm dabbling in some sort of misguided relationship with someone else. But I never see him. Ironic when you never see the boy you're seeing. And I'm getting tired of having all the restraints, but none of the perks. So why am I putting up with it?
Because part of me really does care for him. And I can't make that part of me just get up and walk away.
Somebody slap a sticker on my forehead that says issues
See, I used to thrive on that angsty will-they won't-they tortured drama. But well, I was 13. I've outgrown being feed by that, and finding some whacked-out comfort in it. Now I'm just tired.
The person I knew for so long as my soulmate is...different. And things are...complex. Everything has changed. And no, I'm not with him right now. But he finally wants to be with me, and I'm so over it. (see "I lost my virginity...")
And I'm dabbling in some sort of misguided relationship with someone else. But I never see him. Ironic when you never see the boy you're seeing. And I'm getting tired of having all the restraints, but none of the perks. So why am I putting up with it?
Because part of me really does care for him. And I can't make that part of me just get up and walk away.
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I don't know you and am new to this group but I can give you some advice and, hopefully, it'll be worth more than ya' paid for it.
Instead, may I suggest that you change your point of view and do so every single day when you get up in the morning. Don't look macro - at the PROCESS - look micro. Make your life simply about having aty least one good EVENT each and every day. When you do this with a passionate committment, in life or in a relationship, you'll soon find that you will have strung together a series of good events linked simply by the thread of your participation in them. A long enough series of good events is pretty close to a good life - or a good relationship. With this attitude, when bad shit happens it doesn't throw you off track since it isn't all about the macro-process or the destination. It's about the micro - the pleasure, the learning, the experience, the growth - little events, each good goals and experiences in themselves.
I promise that with a bit of practice, this shifted point of view will have you experienceing things and people on a different level - one that gives you more and causes you less uncertainty, angst, and pain.
So there. Give it some thought and maybe give it a try. Let me know if it was worth the price of admission.
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