phedre

Thank to everyone who was worried about me! Cause I can't stand making people worry about me. So that snapped me out of it I think. Or at least, made it to where I can control it And I'm quite proud to add that I never gave into the urge to do drugs. I know, I sound like some commercial or something "It was hard to fight the urge. But I did it. So can you." ROFL Screw that. I didn't do it. But I don't care what you guys do as long as you don't hurt yourselves.

Drugs would probably just be bad for me. So knowing that in the back of my mind kept me from doing it I think. Oh well. And no more stealing. Cause my ex asked me last night why I hadn't theived anything for him. I told him I would today. And I woke up, and I have the normal feelings of "I don't wanna do that. It's not worth the trouble and what if I get caught." etc. YAY. This is good.

I don't know what I'm gonna do now though. Syd hit it right on though, I've got a lot of anxeity built up. So I know there's gonna be a release of that in some way. I wonder what's next. What urges will my psychotic mind have now? lol I guess it could be that this is some temporary break though, and maybe the same urges will come back in a few days? I don't know. I don't wanna think about it. I'm just glad that for today, they're controllable.