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Wednesday Apr 19, 2006

Apr 19, 2006
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Holy fucking shit dude.

I am so damn tired. I worked 21 hours this weekend. I worked 9 of those on Easter Sunday running the fucking store by myself with no one else there. I'm thinking at this rate, I am going to burn out really fast. Today is my day off. But I have this sinking feeling that they will call me in tonight.

It's hard to go from not having a job in months to working 45 hours a week, and at varying shifts. Sometimes evenings, sometimes mornings. My sleep is fucked. I feel tired all the time. I know I'll snap into the swing of it here eventually. At least, I hope so.

And to top it off, they only pay me $7/hr, so I'm looking for another job to work at part time. Cause I so can't make enough money for everything. I need to move. Bad. And I need to get a car. And I am so fucked. Anyone wanna let go of a car for a grand or less? I didn't think so... whatever

My life is still completely lame. And I never have time to play music anymore, which really sucks. I wanna work on my music because when I can't, I feel like a part of me is dying. Like my soul is withering up and dying and I'm just an empty shell.

First thing I'm buying though, once I get some money saved away, is a keyboard. I grew up always having a piano around, from age 3 until age 15. And I would love to have one again, but what with being poor, I'm gonna try for a decent keyboard. And I know it will only help me with my guitar. But I can pick out chords and melodys easier on piano, I always have. That's what's keeping me going right now. If I make enough overtime at work, maybe I can get a keyboard soon and write some more songs. Maybe. Hopefully.

Hope all of you wonderful people are happy and well.
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orbro:
i'll give you my old yamaha keyboard if you want it. it's in really good shape. lots of sounds including grand piano n shit. i dunno maybe pay for the postage n packing. seriously!
Apr 20, 2006
syd67:
keep writing, keep playing, but keep it practical. jump when the oppotunities present themselves. create the opportunities when the time is right. hunger is what fuels most inspiration. don't let desire fade.

...or something

kiss
Apr 21, 2006

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