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Still wanna go out dancing, but the feeling is much diminished by bad feelings.

I'm thinking I'll leave my hair red, but put black streaks in it. Maybe...

I might withdraw for a bit. Don't concern yourself with why (not that I think anyone really would). I'm just feeling overly insecure of late. I don't wanna put myself out there anymore, cause I'll just get...
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grrlhavoc:
black streaks....
victorian:
i dont think you should let ANYONE get you in a bad mood. (im one to talk, check out my tragedy in my journal) i think you are uuber cute and i think that no one has the right to unjustly get you down

so get out there and shake shake shake that ass proper!
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I want to go out and dance. This is all I want to do. *sigh*

Well, that's not entirely true. I also desperately wanna go and get a tattoo. Right down the inside of my forearm. I might ask Annie to do it since she's only about an hour away, but right now she's in Canada I think, visiting some of the other girls. So...
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infidel:
..about dancing, you should meet my girlfriend....I go dancing with her as much as I can, to Sin 13 or Communion, but I cant go as often as she wants to cuz of late band rehearsals...but she goes anyway. I would just feel better if she weren't going alone....two beautiful girls are better than one, right? Maybe we can get Jizzikah and her guy to go out and all have a SG dance party...
silencenoir:
Your hair is so gorgeous the way it is now.... but you'll be beautiful in any hair colour. Black is always good.

smile
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Check this out:

Funniest thing happened tonight. I'm chilling with this group that I'm still kinda getting to know, so I haven't told them I'm an SG. And one of them walks over to the computer and calls one of the guys over. I walk over and I see that he's pulled up Lithium Picnic, which belongs to lithium_picnic here on the site. Which...
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chaosmachine:
must be a fun shocker to people smile, It's like having a millionaire for a neighbor and not knowing.
ryan:
that's funny!

i usually always tell ppl i meet i'm on the site...
trying to promote it and all... hehehe... i'm a nerd. biggrin \
nah, i just want them to see me naked!
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I may have made a bed with you
But I wont fucking lie in it
Ass in the air, waiting for you
To fucking rape me for all Im worth
You can hit it from behind
But I dont take it in the ass
So just fucking watch where
Youre trying to put yourself
Because maybe you shouldnt be there
Or in my life at...
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helm:
Deep, yet sexy.

I really like the line Like Im just a bitch who came as an individual thought within the overall piece. Really cool undercurrents there.

Very cool.
ryan:
i feel like that often...

kiss
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I have too much boy drama in my life. Which is why I truly hope Asha makes good on her proposal to me. That would make my life beautiful.

Somebody slap a sticker on my forehead that says issues whatever

See, I used to thrive on that angsty will-they won't-they tortured drama. But well, I was 13. I've outgrown being feed by that, and finding some...
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cyd:
boys lie.
user092840982:
Phedre:

I don't know you and am new to this group but I can give you some advice and, hopefully, it'll be worth more than ya' paid for it. wink I see way too many people, mostly younger but some old enough to know better, hung up on the process of going through life. That is - they see life and realtionships especially as a process - a journey leading from one place to another. When that happens you tend to judge the succcess and value of that relationship by looking at the final result or the current position in the process.

Instead, may I suggest that you change your point of view and do so every single day when you get up in the morning. Don't look macro - at the PROCESS - look micro. Make your life simply about having aty least one good EVENT each and every day. When you do this with a passionate committment, in life or in a relationship, you'll soon find that you will have strung together a series of good events linked simply by the thread of your participation in them. A long enough series of good events is pretty close to a good life - or a good relationship. With this attitude, when bad shit happens it doesn't throw you off track since it isn't all about the macro-process or the destination. It's about the micro - the pleasure, the learning, the experience, the growth - little events, each good goals and experiences in themselves.

I promise that with a bit of practice, this shifted point of view will have you experienceing things and people on a different level - one that gives you more and causes you less uncertainty, angst, and pain.

So there. Give it some thought and maybe give it a try. Let me know if it was worth the price of admission. wink

magnum

Magnum-HD.com
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I love SG, with all of my heart. Seriously. This site is utterly amazing, and offering such kewl experiences for us girls. I'm just in awe. And I'm so eternally grateful to be a part of this.

probot link on MTV.com

There's a link to some pics from the shoot halfway through the article. I mean, never in my life did I think I might...
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victorian:
i congradulate you
but
MTV is just another media outlet
a big problem in america is that shitty entertainment conglomerates like it are put before individuals
you, and everyone else on this site, and all the people in the world are much more important then any nettwork
check out jason i think he works in the record industry
asha:
MARRY ME!
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I feel like a big fucking loser. *sigh*

Troubles on the home front kids. Not a lot of fun going on here in Phdreland. I did go to a party last night though, and that was fun shit. My ex was hitting on me all night though, and he had munched some shrooms, so he was trying to be all touchy-feely with me and I...
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kakairo:
Creativity is often a great outlet. If shooting a set and recording (I assume you mean music) don't do it, try poetry (I know, sounds cheesy, but it helps me sometimes even though my poems are pure crap) or drawing/painting (anything from realistic stuff to throwing paint at a canvas or slashing charcoal across a page).
fractal:
YAY!! New Phedre!!

I'm sorry you're having a shit day though...or were, since thats yesterday's entry. Hope manic Monday is treating you better than sucky Sunday.
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Okay, I want to eat lots of candy, and listen to music, and jump on my bed, and be silly...all sleep-over style. It makes me feel like I'm twelve. I almost never have these urges to do completely girly things like this. But well, I'm having one. And I have no one to be silly with frown


*******UPDATE*******

11:07pm - Aries just sent me the picture...
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stevesod:
*** screech *** Okay, wait, ain't nobody told me anyone this gorgeous lived in my state. wink
chaosmachine:
girly girls have cooties kiss
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So...fun story time. If you haven't read yesterday's journal, you might want to before reading this so you understand. Last night, I wrote the apartment complex people a nasty letter, I mean, really hostile. Normally, I'm so shy and reserved. But I told them I was disgusted with the way that they handled this, and I'd really like a fucking peephole, and I've lost all...
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stiles:
Glad to hear they're at least listening. I'm renting a building to run my shop out of until my place gets sold, and the landlord still hasn't fixed the (very) leaky roof. It rains a ton around here lately, and the customer's cars and my tools have been getting wet.
We're withholding the rent until the roof gets fixed...hope it works!
syd67:
I'm proud of you for standing up for yourself. That $75 still seems like a pain though. Good luck.

wink
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I HATE my apartment complex. Last month, they took until the 15th to cash my rent check. So this month, I'm sitting here trying to make sure I don't go under $550 for weeks, because they suck like that.

Someone pounds on my front door this morning and wakes me up. I haven't had a peephole since I moved in, just a hole in my...
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lx:
That asshole needs a sharp kick in the nuts. And they need to fix your fucking peephole. Fuckers!
aaronidiot:
I'm really sorry, I can sympathize with you. What even sucks more is when they lose your check, then call you three weeks after it was due and tell you that you never sent it to them, so then you have to put a stop payment on the first check, which costs you 20 dollars, and then you have to write a whole new check, and then they end up trying to cash the first check and then the second check as well. Landlords are generally pretty big shits. Hope things get better for you.
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My legs hurt, my feet are bruised, my neck and back are all fucked to hell, I'm sleep deprived, I drove too far, and I'm hungry.

Do I sound miserable? I've never been more happy in my life biggrin

This weekend was utterly amazing. Meeting all those lovely SG ladies was incredible. And Dave Grohl made me swoon. Just like I knew he would. *grin* I...
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nineveh:
Thank you for kind comment M'lady Phedre. Alas, my words are too inadequate to truly describe your beauty and your grace. smile miao!!
rae:
sweetie you are sexy! nice seeing you! i was too sick to be hyper...

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So I'm in LA with Amina, Midori, CoCo, and, Soraya and I'm in the shower and they yell "Hey, your set went up today!" So I hurry up and dry off, throw on some clothes and rush out here. I mean, get a mental picture. Too funny. Amina was nice enough to let me log in and tell you all this. Thanks to everyone who...
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victorian:
wow! youre such a narcissist, but i would have trouble keeping myself from falling in love with myself if I looked like you...

"oh yes, there is like um, something intreaguing and junk about my set oh, but you foolish mortals will never figure it out, oh oh the people from vanity fair are calling, tootles, gotta go, puffy will u please start the sport yaht?"

i must admit though, you have just made all the wrongs that president bush did go away by revealing that booty proper
i8myh8:
Your set drives me crazy. You're my favorite SG. love

Oh.. and my crush. blush