phatduckk

i gotta find out why im chronically bored ... and i gotta find out why i hate so many things.

i may be coming off as a guy that's locks himself in a room with black walls being all emo or someone that has a fat chip on his shoulder ... but rest assured im not like that.

my best guess is that its all a combination of my impatience and high hopes. when you hope for the best and have huge dreams/goals/desires but are the most impatient person ever i guess youre just asking to be constantly let down.

no, i dont sit around crying or anything. i guess id like to think of myself as a nice person that works hard, treats people well and maybe for some reason i feel like i deserve to have at least one of my heart's desires become a reality.

maybe its true that "the best things come for those who wait" so i gotta find some patience within myself. its just pretty hard.

in all honestly i have a shit load of stuff going for me but i still feel like somethings missing.

eh ...