This year has been way better then last year. *knocks on wood* I was able to change my career from sales and do a bartending gig. I think I'm gonna make the same amount of money. I also found out that I don't qualify for financial aid this year yet again. The cut off is 18k ish. Who the fuck in their right mind can live in a major city with that kind of annual paycheck?!?! Good ole USA they only like you when you are poor or have a kid. If you wanna better your education but wanna be independent you better grow a fucking money tree cause that's what you'll need or get fucked in the ass by loans and pray when you graduate you have a job that pays decent. If not use the magic word deferment.
Recently two of my really good child hood friends got married. One is living in Japan so I wasn't able to attend and another lives in SC. It's crazy I am 26 years old.. I live in a two bed room effiency. I have no desire for children. I actually like the idea that my genes will die with me. Where they belong. I don't feel marriage is in the cards for me. Compromise with someone for what? I don't wanna get old passed 65ish maybe 70 depending on when my health really declines I just wanna end it. I have lived with several family members sick and it sucks and all you are is a burden sooner or later. Fuck that. Brompton cocktail please. It's sad cause social security will be higher by then if it still exists... We slave just to get social security only to fucking be sick and do reverse mortgages on are house to get more money to live because it's not enough. Life sometimes seems so fucking pointless? We live to fight and fight to live.
The house and the wife and the kids and the cars and the pets is just not what I desire from it but then sooner or later you're just gonna be this lonely bitter fuckery of a mess.
Fuck I just wanna be like hank moody in a sea full of pussy but even then that hand gets old. I'm tired of the Internet bullying, the instagram qualifications. That Miami has nothing to offer with woman, people individuality. That truthfully even though you dress like a big hipster your just a miami barbie.
I have always loved THE woman of sg they are so different then Miami girls. They indulge in the "loser" , gamer, sexuality, anime, music, film realm and they aren't ugly.. They are fucking really hot. It's the best of both worlds. Before I came here I didn't think it was possible.. I think sg fucked up my bar for woman and now I can't go back. I'm not even trying to have sex anymore I'm just so sick of everything. The girl I was hooking up with literally stopped taking to me.. Because of my wcw... Rofl. Great sex though she will be missed. And so I think it's time for an sg hiatus. I'm sure I will lurk but I don't think I will contribute too much.
It's getting depressing day by day. All this love and no jet :(.
Sincerely your friend
Richard James rose
