pharcyde

berserk gets really weird, really fast.

thank god im schizoid. if i wasnt, i cant imagine how afraid id feel knowing i might have cancer. i cant even get more tests done to find out for sure until i get back home next month. even if it is, its one of the better kinds to have, but it can always spread.

a few hours ago it was totally clear out, and...
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3 tests tomarrow

been off meds for about a week but i finally have more . last night my mind was so active i got like 3 hours of sleep, after i had a hallucination that was so real i jumped out of bed, hit the lights and just stood there trying to calm down. then the remote for my tv fell onto my foot and i think...
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alcohol is pure evil. i hardly ever used to drink, but after hearing about a drunk husband taking a hammer to his wifes head after getting drunk at his sons wedding reception last weekend i dont think ill ever be touching it again.

the most annoying ever has got to be having stiches in your mouth

surgery went well.

the left side of my face is fucking huge.

fucking cheap dad!!

- im so stoned off anesthesia still so try to follow

3 weeks ago i got a prescription for adhd meds. i wasnt covered at the time, and they cost $700, but the insurace company would reimburse my dad %100 once the papers go through. but my dad, treating his money as part of his soul, decided on his own without telling...
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"sometimes...
you can cry until there is nothing wet in you. you can scream and curse to where your thoat rebels and ruptures. you can pray, all you want, to whatever god you think will listen, and still it makes no difference. it goes on, with no sign as to when it might release you. and you know that if it ever did relent...
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- im sick. im nose was running like a fountain during vascular plants and my head huurts.
- surgery on friday
- i loves ovechkin. i LOVES him
- sens and leafs tomarrow
- what a stupid label to stamp on a bottle of water:
"... exp sep2008..."