im pretty much an emotionally locked-down person. there really arent many people iv ever met who i would choose to spend time with over doing something alone. i just have a really negative outlook on others, as most people iv met are obnoxious, greedy, selfish, self righteous, vain, ect. iv been like this for years, and after a while you start to get used to being alone and not caring about other people.
now my best friend, who is pretty much my only one, has had a brain tumor since last november. hes deaf from the chemo, but other than that you wouldnt know theres anything wrong with him, thats how well hes doing. its like he doesnt have cancer at tall.
tonite when i got home from work i hear that hes not doing well anymore and hes not expected to live another week.
iv been unfortunate enuf to have a lot of people around me die, but people i dont really care about. as awful as it might sound, this includes relatives like uncles, aunts, even my grandparents.
but god this time it actually really really sucks a lot. i wish i knew how to deal with this. maybe if i werent so damn anti social id find some comfort from other people. blah this sucks
now my best friend, who is pretty much my only one, has had a brain tumor since last november. hes deaf from the chemo, but other than that you wouldnt know theres anything wrong with him, thats how well hes doing. its like he doesnt have cancer at tall.
tonite when i got home from work i hear that hes not doing well anymore and hes not expected to live another week.
iv been unfortunate enuf to have a lot of people around me die, but people i dont really care about. as awful as it might sound, this includes relatives like uncles, aunts, even my grandparents.
but god this time it actually really really sucks a lot. i wish i knew how to deal with this. maybe if i werent so damn anti social id find some comfort from other people. blah this sucks
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