phant0mas

So I really let my penis do the thinking yesterday.

I've been single for a long time and I suppose I was feeling that need for human touch. Of course we all have this need and it should be fufilled as a normal , happy human being cannot be so without it.
My issue may be that I went to the wrong source: My ex-girlfriend.

We've been seperate for over a year. We see each other in passing when I drop into the liqour store down the block. It was my bottle shop before we broke up and she got a job there months later so the fact she was my ex wasn't going to stop me from going in.
Besides, when I told her we weren't going to survive as a couple, she seemed to agree somewhat and I thought all was good. It still is I suppose but I feel strange after yesterday.
Tired and bored, I accepted her offer to hang outfor old times sake.We grabbed a few beers and hung out in the sun, chatted about friends and old co-workers, family and the general state of our lives.
This is when my dick took over. Filled with lust and hungry with carnal desire, I embraced her and she went with it. Maybe her plan all along. Maybe mine. Whatever, it was so good to feel her breath on my neck, her breasts on my lips, my hand her ass. The way she smells, the way she fucks.
So, so good...

So what now? I don't really want to be in a relationship with her but I still want her. Maybe even need her a bit. She wants me but I don't know if she just wants to toy with me because maybe she felt a bit hurt that I was the one who made the move to end things.