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bracket...which band? allegra gellar, low or hot hot heat? or i guess the moon seven times? so many bands, so little swooning.

an actress' touch

so i said those giant words, the ones you wanted me to say
then you turned and walked away satisfied that someone said them even if just once
but what about the cost, the cross that we now bear
the heaviness that fills the air between us coast to coast to coast to coast

for a couple of days the loneliness went away
it doesn't take much, an actress' touch to build my confidence

but now i'm sinking aimlessly into this couch
turn the computer on and turn my brain off...turn my brain off

for a couple of days the loneliness went away
it doesn't take much, an actress' touch to build my confidence
for a couple of days the loneliness went away
it doesn't take much, a declaration of love to make me crash

it doesn't take much, an actress' touch to build my confidence
it doesn't take much, a declaration of love to make me crash
it doesn't take much, an actress' touch to build my confidence
it doesn't take much, a declaration of love to make me crash



[Edited on Jan 31, 2004 9:05PM]

so should i buy those LOW tickets?

i miss you too...but i'm warm.

i called the other night...left a message very late, very drunk. i knew she wouldn't answer...it was after 5am there...told her about how well things are going...and how i met robin tunney...gave her a copy of 'film'...because it has that 'niagra, niagra' sample in canada...she'll probably sue me now. anyway...i talked about cds and famous people and machines and how it wasn't fair that i missed her so much. oh, and i'm back to mostly vegan...well, that's two out of three resolutions broken in month one...i am nearly finished with the cd though...it has a name...

allegra gellar - the make up artist...sad and silly, huh? it has a ring though...and meaning on more levels than THEIR jobs...the artwork denver is cooking is beautiful...

ps...write a new journal so you don't end up with 8 pages of comments...that shit is obnoxious. especially when half comments are your own...

please send email explaining this mess...whatever it is i'm sorry...i put nothing past THEM...maybe make up eats your fucking brain...well, at least your heart.

the mind is a terrible thing to taste...it tastes awful...bitter...it's a lovely looking buffet but stay away. you'll never know...i will never know. the world is filled with SHE...the world is beautiful and magical but hates us all. try to still love it. SHE is killing herself...

but i don't want HER to keep doing that. once a month at 3 in the morning through tears she would tell me the truth, that she was scared of time, and that she wants to throw the walls in the scrapyard. she just always remembers her mothers training and her fathers hatred and has a new set of walls up before you can blink. i dunno, it shouldn't be that way. it is i know, that's why i'm having difficulty. i wanna let her go but i'm afraid what will happen if she keeps ending up dissappointed in herself. i always care too much.

feb. 8th 2002 was the last time that i've done that.

i envy you to a power not yet known.......

radio dosen't exist in nyc. long live the disc changer.

[Edited on Jan 20, 2004 8:41AM]

hi...cd in mail...for real

YYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok. here we go, jerm and i(pez.) have been friends now almost seven years. we too have both recieved recently another star burn on our hearts. both by our lovers that turned into something that decided that we were the ones that were fucked up.selfish.immature.inconsiderate...etc. even if that's true we still love with our entire being and that's where the problem really comes from, they can't deal with that much emotion. so we lament together every fucking chance that we get how we're too much the same and too different than everyone else.

love. i love you all. i'm drunk and liatening to bright eyes...

checking.sad.noatlforjerm.willsurvive.onlybarely.

sorry.stillloveyou.justapussy.

what is it..like 20 degrees out there? it be cold my nigga! stay warm yo

ok. now it's 2 degrees and there's not a damn thing to keep anything warm enough on the human body. frostbite here we go!!!!

HAPPY JANUARY 10TH TO ONE AND ALL AND TO ALL A GOOD DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! heh heh...selfmade holidays fucking rock!

anyhoo. i'm at work and waiting to see how many stupid tourists are gonna come shop in arctic weather....... and i'm sure they'll be many!.....oh well

let's see what happens.

pez.