has anyone else heard the new mum album?......perfectly splendid.
life is heating up here in the l.e.s while i can't decide what the hell i want to do about girls/love.......knowing is feeling and feeling is getting confusing.
l.a. feels so far away...
inspiration is around the corner, i see it glancing my way and soon it will strike with a vengeance and i can finish...
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life is heating up here in the l.e.s while i can't decide what the hell i want to do about girls/love.......knowing is feeling and feeling is getting confusing.
l.a. feels so far away...
inspiration is around the corner, i see it glancing my way and soon it will strike with a vengeance and i can finish...
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a moment of time for the passing of the illustrious stillifegaijin. farewell.
and i'm crazy. don't worry i'll be alright in a few more(many more) years.
rock and fucking roll. yeah!
and i'm crazy. don't worry i'll be alright in a few more(many more) years.
rock and fucking roll. yeah!
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trent:
you getting commited?
pezboy7416:
they wouldn't take me.
....waiting for the winter to pass......or is this spring?...these days of cloudy mists and rain falling like so many tears from the eyes of the universe.......why would they be crying?..why wouldn't they?!
god...time never moves in the direction we wish it to...WHY?.....adversity can be the greatest learning tool or the strongest adversary...i wish we could choose which one we want it to be every time....
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god...time never moves in the direction we wish it to...WHY?.....adversity can be the greatest learning tool or the strongest adversary...i wish we could choose which one we want it to be every time....
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stillifegaijin:
hey pez...i think i'm gonna ditch this scene...abandon SG...it's becoming less and less interesting to me. looking into saving the time and money. any major opposition?
pezboy7416:
major opposition?...hmm.....sticky words.....it's the easiest and fastest way for us to talk but we don't even utilize it like we once did so i guess not.fine leave me..alone abandoned waiting for the sun to come and scour my bones of this stupid flesh. waiting.
sounds that will not stop for the knocking in our heads won't let them.can you imagine all these things being heard inside my eyes.the colours and blips.this life will be the beginning of the perfection one has imagined for many years. yes. excitement growing. talk.talk.
fuck fatigue. they offer pills. i don't want. so i drag. fuck this knee. it needs to get better soon...
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fuck fatigue. they offer pills. i don't want. so i drag. fuck this knee. it needs to get better soon...
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pezboy7416:
destroy your fear of happiness.....
stillifegaijin:
yeah...working on that...first, i need to destroy my insecurity. B's mom told her that B and i are soulmates...awww...how cute. funny, i think it's true.
the feeling of being unfucked makes me particularly happy on this 40 mph wind..30 degrees..sunny(!!!) day in the nyc......
jersey has little to offer in any other way than peace....it's breathing........
how does the moniker "the missd" suit for what i'm gonna do with my words and sounds?
i have much to talk to you (stillifegaijin)about in the way of creating sounds that i'm constantly...
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jersey has little to offer in any other way than peace....it's breathing........
how does the moniker "the missd" suit for what i'm gonna do with my words and sounds?
i have much to talk to you (stillifegaijin)about in the way of creating sounds that i'm constantly...
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pezboy7416:
minion.no.
stillifegaijin:
come here...let's make sounds. first...email me. talk talk talk.
why is clearing my head such a massive ordeal sometimes?........it gets hard to focus on anything or anyone for more than five minutes.....it's always been this way but sometimes it goes into hyperdrive and it's aiming for some destination i can't see and don't know.......all i have is my "sanity" to keep me dry at night so let's hope it stays where i can reach...
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aliceinmyhead:
oh god! I am on that I cant focus on anything thing right now! GRRRRRRRR! Blank slates are filled notebooks.. you are almost god for saying that...
stillifegaijin:
sun kil moon...elected...azure ray...2 days...2 shows...nothing really amazing. a couple songs at sun kil moon made me weepy...the elected was really good but i still find blake to be particularly annoying. azure ray was sort of scary...eat...stop trying to be country...it works for bright eyes but those girls need to stick to their own path and maria needs to eat...time to teach GL3 some songs.
nothing blows my mind. nothing makes me crazy...except B, of course.
ok, your un-fucked.
nothing blows my mind. nothing makes me crazy...except B, of course.
ok, your un-fucked.
edit.clip.think.erase.re- type.send .edit.question.sigh.read.smile.
the process of writing this journal every chance that i get. it's makes it easier.everydayeverything.calmer.mostly.stronger.comments.morebelieving.thank you.
ok. at the 10 day mark my leg allowed me to walk without crutches. WOO-HOO
finally.
my best friend is in the stongest love of his life.(she's amazing and hot!) she's too perfect, and that's the most comforting thing that i've ever felt for him. i...
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the process of writing this journal every chance that i get. it's makes it easier.everydayeverything.calmer.mostly.stronger.comments.morebelieving.thank you.
ok. at the 10 day mark my leg allowed me to walk without crutches. WOO-HOO
finally.
my best friend is in the stongest love of his life.(she's amazing and hot!) she's too perfect, and that's the most comforting thing that i've ever felt for him. i...
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stillifegaijin:
i didn't go see now it's overhead...i got real tired and realized that i'm a poor boy who is about to quit his job with no real plan...i also have less money than i have had in months - but the idea of staying there is way worse than scraping...so, i decided to save money and stay the fuck home. why does financial insecurity worry me so? it doesn't seem to bother most of my friends...B is being very sweet and supportive...but - I WILL NOT TAKE MONEY FROM HER. well, aside from that $10 bill she tossed at me this morning when she thanked me for being her bitch last night.
pezboy7416:
her bitch ....................ok.......... talk.
money is what we have to have to live in this world.......but not alot all the time.....so just lay low and stop fucking worrying. you'll be better than alright...your stillifegaijin for fucks sake.
money is what we have to have to live in this world.......but not alot all the time.....so just lay low and stop fucking worrying. you'll be better than alright...your stillifegaijin for fucks sake.
i've discovered a way to carry juice to my window to smoke a cig. if i put it on the floor about every 4 feet and then crutch to it then move it again and again i get it close enough to pick it up and set it on the sill.
this leg is taking way too long to heal. it's been four days already!!!!...
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this leg is taking way too long to heal. it's been four days already!!!!...
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stillifegaijin:
drinking at work...hasn't happened since the video store. i miss you. i love you. i'm leaving this place.
pezboy7416:
leave and don't look back.
a is the light at the end of my rainbow............yes.....
parking spots are metaphorical.....yes......
b is becoming metaphysical.......yes....
r is putting the earth off it's axis with her bi-polarity.....yes.
m...the question reasked wasn't answered, please do so...yes
s....a new mua...crazyhottallshavedhairperfectasssweet....YES
new york might still have some life left in it.....but it's no la!
our new life is coming in on the next winters moon......to start...
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parking spots are metaphorical.....yes......
b is becoming metaphysical.......yes....
r is putting the earth off it's axis with her bi-polarity.....yes.
m...the question reasked wasn't answered, please do so...yes
s....a new mua...crazyhottallshavedhairperfectasssweet....YES
new york might still have some life left in it.....but it's no la!
our new life is coming in on the next winters moon......to start...
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boxofficepoison:
Is the decoder in ring form?
pezboy7416:
yes it is.
photos still keep me looking.......am i a sad fuck>?
ps......leg hurts like fucking hell!
photos still keep me looking.......am i a sad fuck>?
ps......leg hurts like fucking hell!
certainly not THE melissa...i know what that sexual position is...definently hard to explain.........explain.
heh...one of the two girls. not a crush just humanphysicalcontact. and she has amazing tats on her back and chest.
have fun at jew brunch.. just don't use tofutti cream cheese. galaxy rocks.
tegan and heather are both rockin hot.
if you and dagger love her i'm in on the love. i...
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heh...one of the two girls. not a crush just humanphysicalcontact. and she has amazing tats on her back and chest.
have fun at jew brunch.. just don't use tofutti cream cheese. galaxy rocks.
tegan and heather are both rockin hot.
if you and dagger love her i'm in on the love. i...
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stillifegaijin:
come home and find this new life with me...it's all here...they moved it to another coast. i came just in time. ...even barcelona. (how strange??) - i sooo have a parking space.
stillifegaijin:
umm...email from A today...we'll get together soon.
love you