Something I’ve not really thought about before but just come to realise is I kinda have a little bit of a thing for Dystopian fantasy. Not the point where I’d call it a kink or anything but doing a little bit of a tally, I’ve got a few of them ticking around the back of my brain. You could say it dips a little into my submissive side, not that I’d really call myself a submissive. I’m not sure I’ve actually got the confidence in myself to actually give myself over to it. It takes a lot of trust to put yourself completely into someone else’s hands.
Following someone's instructions is one thing. Going along with their whims shall we say, I find anything where I’m not in control kinda scary. Maybe I’d make more of a student than a submissive. I’ve had a lot more practice at that. Honestly, I’m not sure where this is going. Maybe I’m more nervous about going back to work tomorrow. It’s been a long two weeks, maybe that’s why I’m feeling so nervous. I dunno. I’m sure I’ll feel better once I get in and my shift is underway,