So I am reinstituting my I-hate-men rule. Or, I hate certain men. Or more like one man in particular. Why must I be cursed with this attraction to emotionally distant bearers of external genitalia?
There was a chill in the air last night, and it made me want to be in a lodge in the Adirondacks, with stuffed bears and deerheads everywhere, curled up on a polar bear rug by a fire with someone who makes me very happy. And then we could go kayaking at dawn and listen to the loons and hike into the woods and make love while I'm tied to a tree. One day...
So I need to decide whether I'm going to tell my best friend, who I've known since I was 4, that I'm into bdsm - she has no idea, she's very repressed, I don't know if it would make things better or worse. I don't like that I have to bend the truth with her - but then, if she isn't ready to hear it, it's not going to help anything. sigh.
I have been making test desserts for the roomate to try out for my b-day party - so far we have decided that the marbled pumpkin cheesecake is better than the layered one. I am a diet saboteur.
PS I love corset girl and her new cane, I am the luckiest gal in the world - got to break in the new corset and acquire some hawt-looking stripes!
There was a chill in the air last night, and it made me want to be in a lodge in the Adirondacks, with stuffed bears and deerheads everywhere, curled up on a polar bear rug by a fire with someone who makes me very happy. And then we could go kayaking at dawn and listen to the loons and hike into the woods and make love while I'm tied to a tree. One day...
So I need to decide whether I'm going to tell my best friend, who I've known since I was 4, that I'm into bdsm - she has no idea, she's very repressed, I don't know if it would make things better or worse. I don't like that I have to bend the truth with her - but then, if she isn't ready to hear it, it's not going to help anything. sigh.
I have been making test desserts for the roomate to try out for my b-day party - so far we have decided that the marbled pumpkin cheesecake is better than the layered one. I am a diet saboteur.
PS I love corset girl and her new cane, I am the luckiest gal in the world - got to break in the new corset and acquire some hawt-looking stripes!
1) Nice work on breaking in the corset (& I hope the collars are getting lots of wear & tear too!)
2) Hmmm...the guy thing...maybe its just age? Maybe it's that you have a bad-boy complex? Maybe we all love the things we cant have? Grrrr...
3) Adirondacks - good idea... I was feeling the chill in the air & thinking how much I'd like something similar, tho no loons or kayaks were involved, lots of wool blankets & sweaters with nothing but a bra under them were involved...
4) ps, I love corset girl too, or at least just listening to stories about her. I also love anyone who makes marks on your skin
5) best friends & bdsm, a story of mixed emotions. Tonite on Lifetime, after dark.....seriously, I went thru this myself, too. Ok, perhaps my friend isnt repressed, but he's like vanilla ice cream sans the little black flecks of beans. I finally told him last year, and I think for a long time he was really freaked out, but he came around. Now he's a fucking story-whore, cuz he's got a 3 month old girl & his wife so he's looking for me to be his entertainment. I share, but never really go too too into it, as perhaps Im not so comfy telling him full details, either. He's ok hearing that I like to use a belt to spank some girl, but I think think he's ready yet to hear me say I like to hold her down by her throat, or ball gag her, or padlock her to the bed for 36 hrs, etc...
-I guess my point is this: if it's who you are, you shouldnt have to lie or hide. It's probably just as weird for you to discuss, etc as it is for her to hear/ask about. I sorta eased into what I was into. I'd 'allude' to things...Other thing is, does she know you're bi? That also may be hard for her to accept, if she's that repressed.
Either way, I hope you find a way for YOU to be comfy with her w/out having to lie.
OK, now back to our regularly scheduled program, sushi & beers!
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