persephone

To give you a little idea of what has been going on in my life, I wrote this for Myspace because that is what my friends read:

"I think I am finally ready to not be such a nice person anymore. I have told myself that before. But I just couldn't follow through with it. I love my friends. Maybe I love them too much because I seem to be blinded by it. No matter how many times I get screwed over, or go out of my way to help somebody and never get anything in return (not that I expect it), I still never learn my lesson. Being a nice person gets you nothing. I used to be happy just to make the people I care about happy. But I have realized they don't want to do the same thing for me. For anyone who is reading this and thinks I might be talking about them. You probably know I don't really care about money, except that I am trying to save to go to Mexico. If you owe me money and can't pay it back, fine. All I ask for is some respect. Be thankful that I hepled you out. Maybe show me somehow that you are thankful. Clean my kitchen, take me out for a drink, anything. At least talk to me and ask me how I am doing or let me know you still like me. I know people have problems and maybe they aren't thinking about how they are treating me. Or they have girlfriends or other more important things going on. But hey, maybe I have treated you guys like shit and I should get off my high horse, huh? If I have been a jerk to anyone, please let me know. Because what I feel like right now is that I help people and I am there for them and let them cry on my shoulder and then I just get walked all over. I am done with this. Seriously. If you guys catch me being nice and going out of my way to help someone, be it lending money, paying for drinks, letting someone stay at my house for free or making someone dinner, please give me a swift kick in the ass. This is the new selfish, not so nice Jessica. I suppose this will mostly start after I move, you know, so I can help clean the house and pack everything up. So if you need anything from me, you have until May 1st to ask."

Luckily, you guys don't have to worry about this because you don't know me in real life.

My friend that was going to go to Mexico with me, cancelled. So if anyone can give me some good advice of how to get out of the damned country, let me know.

On the bright side, I am going to get my fractal tattoo with the money I was saving for Mexico.

I have less than 2 weeks to move and I don't have a place yet and I am not packed.

But, i did get to go see Thomas Dolby tonight. He is the coolest ever.

Here is a picture I made:




I am excited for my new set that is coming soon