Marc took me to the bookstore and to Kohls and to Target, and I am a happy happy Perr 
I ended up finding a pretty comprehensive Mermaid lore and facts book....so thrilled about that. If you don't know already, I am quite obsessed with mermaids, and yes, they do exist. If you don't think so you are too boring and close-minded for me! 
I also got a book called Ina May's Guide to Childbirth. Something else you may not know about me is that I am thoroughly fascinated with pregnancy, childhood, and women's biology and sexuality in general. I also love babies and children, even though I have a thing about OTHER people's children..... But who doesn't?
Anyhoo, this book is already one of the most eye-opening and brilliant books on childbirth I have ever read. Like nothing before, this one shows you the way to what is called "birth ecstasy," and yes, this really exists- just like female ejaculation- in which a woman experiences a very orgasmic birth. Anyone who is TTC, pregnant, or even just wildly curious, you should read this book. I will experience this one day, I know it. Hrm, what else....I coloured my hair today. It's autumn, and like clock-work, my hair must become the colour of the leaves.
Peektures! I'm really tired here so forgive my face More....
I don't wanna start shouting it at the rooftops yet, but it would seem that very soon, financial things will be getting a lot better for us.
So ready for the weekend. Mostly so I can get it over with and find another PCP. The other sliding scale in Virginia Beeatch only offers appointments if you come in on Mondays between 10:30-11:30am, THEN you can get an appointment...after you've proven you're basically poor. Just don't understand why I have to jump through so many fucking ropes to take care of my HEALTH...something that should be taken care of, pronto, for ANYfuckingBODY. If you don't have a job that offers you insurance you can afford, or if you aren't rich enough to spend 400 a month on health insurance, don't come to this country. You will suffer, sometimes unbearably. 
Eh, enough of that. Bloody fuck I am tired of talking about my pain...mostly tired of feeling it. I do everything. I meditate, I do yoga, I walk 4 times a week, I do my very very best to stay positive, I get regular massages, I eat as healthy as I can and 95% of my liquid intake is purified water, I take things like 5-htp and homepathic things such as quinine for leg pain...I buy topical rubs..I take long baths. I really just don't know what else I can do myself to ease my suffering. If anyone has any good websites or info, please do let me know. <3
This blog is officially long enough. Mostly. Night night, lovedoves.
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