perlpunk

Lately I've just been confusion over conflict, which I have created such an involved life situation where I'm always doing something though at the same time wanting to take a break to just have a simple, slow week.

Between racing (though I haven't done much actual racing.. mainly stuff with my car and helping friends), my regular job and the other work I try to procure on the side I consistently feel behind. Even after creating a task list for the week and completing most or all of the tasks I find myself in this strange circle of doing more to do less. I think I'd like to see an end, though not sure if I will. Often my thoughts and frustrations peak at the point of wanting to drop everything and start a new, though rather realizing I am somehow comfortable with things or possibly incapable of doing so.

Besides the constant racket of things to do running around in my head I was glad to enjoy lunch yesterday with my girlfriend and friends who is moving to San Diego this weekend. I hope I will have some chance to visit them before the year is up. Though my preferences of lifestyle lie elsewhere I admin them for their state independence from a normal work schedule.

My weekend will consist of being tired, though I am really not looking forward to many things associated with that, I am looking forward to the company of friends.


so it goes...