i made it through over an entire year without posting a single entry in this thing. i'm not sure whether i should smile and grin or .. okay.. 
why i'm actually writing anything now i have no idea. mostly because i'm trying to negate working on a project i started. this past year has been the most intense i've ever known. all shorts of shit happening. a million things far from just going to work, partying and collecting a pay check. things both good and bad, although arranged in a way i can only describe as intense.
i'm glad to see the new year. i feel like after the struggle of this past year i am more motivated to get things on the right track for me.
i was provided with a new race car this past year after my business partner totaled my original one. i got to drive it last weekend, i drove like i haven't been able to in so long. it was like an orgasm mentally, i'm looking forward to sunday when i can do it again.
i read through my previous years posts before and after my breakup with jen. it makes me sick to think of the shit she put me through. what was most interesting as a post from Sept of 2004 when a friend of jens asked about 'mjs'. through the vision of the past it occurs to me that her friend was warning me. at least some people have morals in this world. oddly enough i'm supposed to go visit jen in late feburary. i wonder at this point if i actually will.. i love san francisco so i probably will, but how i wish i would be hanging out with someone who didn't make me so angry inside. the past i've been able to mostly forgive, however, its the present which i stumble over.
well it could be another year before i post anything again.. we'll see. in any case, i'm looking forward to an evening at the cruise room tomorrow night.
brian
...my mistake, it was simply a thought
why i'm actually writing anything now i have no idea. mostly because i'm trying to negate working on a project i started. this past year has been the most intense i've ever known. all shorts of shit happening. a million things far from just going to work, partying and collecting a pay check. things both good and bad, although arranged in a way i can only describe as intense.
i'm glad to see the new year. i feel like after the struggle of this past year i am more motivated to get things on the right track for me.
i was provided with a new race car this past year after my business partner totaled my original one. i got to drive it last weekend, i drove like i haven't been able to in so long. it was like an orgasm mentally, i'm looking forward to sunday when i can do it again.
i read through my previous years posts before and after my breakup with jen. it makes me sick to think of the shit she put me through. what was most interesting as a post from Sept of 2004 when a friend of jens asked about 'mjs'. through the vision of the past it occurs to me that her friend was warning me. at least some people have morals in this world. oddly enough i'm supposed to go visit jen in late feburary. i wonder at this point if i actually will.. i love san francisco so i probably will, but how i wish i would be hanging out with someone who didn't make me so angry inside. the past i've been able to mostly forgive, however, its the present which i stumble over.
well it could be another year before i post anything again.. we'll see. in any case, i'm looking forward to an evening at the cruise room tomorrow night.
brian
...my mistake, it was simply a thought