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Friday Oct 15, 2004

Oct 15, 2004
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Last night was a bittersweet. I want to cry but discovered I can't. All I can squeeze out is one measley tear. I'm numb and confused. I know were not right for each other, we have "nothing in common" and "No common interests" but sometimes it can be soooo good I just want to forget everything else. Last night we said everything that we've both been thinking. That we have great sex and nothing else. We decided it was best that we not see each other anymore because you can't base a relationship solely on sex.
Why not?
After all was said I wanted to go back on it. Maybe I'm trying to make something out of nothing. Maybe I didn't want to let him leave because I wanted him to change his mind. I clung to what might be the last intimate moments I'll ever have with him. Whatever we have/had, it's worth clinging to. But he held me too like he didn't want to let me go or maybe he was afraid that when he did let me go I'd start crying.
I do want him to find someone better, someone he can connect with. I don't know that I'll do any better. It was only a short time, but I'm lucky that I did get to be with him and I'm fucking cvrying nopw.


Edit: "The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person."
VIEW 22 of 22 COMMENTS
polly:
.. yeah, it sucks.... i had to shove it back in.
Oct 16, 2004
kirin_ka:
I think you should edit the part where you say "...some one better..." to "...some one other than myself...." or "...some one who ain't got shit on me!" Nobody is better or worse than us, maybe misguided, maybe personality challenged or enhanced, but never better. And what can be better than some one who sings kareoke to the Spice Girls?
Oct 19, 2004

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