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CockyPMSGirl called it. Im back together with CJ. What was it, 4 days? Im so weak. Its not fair though, my mom got involved and told him things I told her in confidence. Funny that he meets my mom after we break up, my sister took him over there. And then they talk about me. I took my mom to kareoke last night and CJ showed up. I sang my song and I was still shaking when I got offstage. He looked at me like Im the greatest thing since jello and said, You never cease to amaze me. Later he asks:
Do you have something to tell me?
Like what?
I dont know, what did you tell your mom?
Ah shit, whatd she tell you?
Why dont you tell me what you told her?
Aaarggh damn meddling mom.
So then he tells me he cares about me, obviously, or he wouldnt have come. And he asks why Im so scared about us. The truth is Ive never been in a relationship where I havent been in control. You know, whoever loves least has the control. And its not that I want to control him. Fuck, piss, shit! I think Im scared because I actually love him. Fucking fuck I said it. Why the hell is it so hard for me to admit? He knows though, and he sees right through me. So yeah, lets see what happens.

I finally saw the Paris Hilton Sex tape. I watched it with my sister and we got a good laugh.

"Love is a trick that nature plays on us to get us to reproduce. I want no part of it." - Callisto (Xena)