perfectequation

There are so many things I want to be doing right now. Well actually, only three.
Make/sell clothes on my own website, be a tattoo artist, and go to FIDM (I know, I'm a slacker, I don't go anymore).

That's all I want. But I don't have time and/or money for any of these things. At all. It's getting discouraging, because when I first got here, my goals seemed so close (except for that tattoo thing, the person who wanted me to apprentice was in WA and he asked after I moved. tsk tsk.) but then, one by one, they all kinda fell apart.

Now I don't even know where to start anymore. If I could start at least making a tiny bit of clothes and selling those every month, even on ebay, not even on my own site yet, I think I'd be able to make it down to only working one job. That would be awesome. But first I need to save up for a serger and then get some more sewing ideas. It seems like no problem, but the serger thing is bugging me...since I have sooo many other things I need to pay before I even think of that.

I'm just frustrated, since I know what I want and it's too hard right now to do any of those things. I don't even know where to start with the other two things as it is.


I've just been in a bad mood lately. Frustrated about this stuff and frustrated with people in general. Sorry for being a sad panda.


At least I have Matthew.


Edited to add: Right after I posted this, I got an almost $2.00 raise!

Also edited to add: What do I make out of seafoamy green gradient yarn? I mean really, I can't think of anything!!! I also got a few other solid colors and one ribbony skein (yay for free yarn!) but I can't for the life of me think of anything to make...