peopleskills

Every day I struggle to entertain myself. I know, it sounds like I'm complaining about a problem people wish they had. And that may be true. Sue me. I've pretty much figured out that if I want to go to school, I need to keep my income nice and low in order to qualify for financial aid. Either that or go get a job and save the 4k I'd need in order to go. Both options require me to wait till next year in order to go, which means the next year is gonna go by in a blink. I'll have something to show for it, or I won't. And I'm having a hard time motivating myself to start anything. Getting sick didn't help at all, as I can't even get back on the bike till that's gone. Music seems totally empty for me now, as though some inner demon that fired me up in the past is either dormant or dead- and I think that's the same demon that kept me writing while I was young. That voice is silent now.

So the challenge is this- What to do with my time. I'm trying to make sure I have a schedule that takes care of the essentials--laundry, bills, grocery shopping, etc. It's the feeding of my mind that I'm a bit worried about. Idle time is bad news, cuz I generally end up watching tv all day and not improving myself in any way.

I guess I need a hobby.