feel like ranting even though i know the kind of responses ill get but I'm going to rant my way anyway...
since moving out away from my sister after 26yrs of living with my family, I've really noticed I'm doing more neck exercises (if you know what i mean). I am so damn ready for my first exclusive girlfriend its not funny. yes, i said first exclusive. so far ive only had a wkend fling with a girl that went no where and then another period of interest in another girl until she wanted me to fight for her even after creating a relationship with an american soldier living in S.Korea at the time (she only wanted me coz i was physically there for her). so yeh, fucked her off. lol.
bit of background for what else i have to say. for the last 2-3 years, I've been going to a meditation class. And my sister and i were told last year that we both struggle to find partners since emotionally, we satisfy each other since we have such a strong and close relationship. So now that we live apart, hopefully things will change for the two of us.
So i feel that now I'm living away from her, i can't help but check out nearly every girl that walks past me. The only thing i feel that is stopping me now is my confidence. Confidence in talking to girls other than friends is the one thing i lack most in my personality. I hate it. One aspect that i find defines my lack of confidence is that i don't find myself physically attractive. I'm hoping that once my ankle is better and i can get to the gym, my attractiveness and confidence should take a boost for the better and things can change.
I just wish that more women that aren't married, taken or 40+ would actually find me attractive.
well I'm really running out of things to say now, so i guess thats it.
since moving out away from my sister after 26yrs of living with my family, I've really noticed I'm doing more neck exercises (if you know what i mean). I am so damn ready for my first exclusive girlfriend its not funny. yes, i said first exclusive. so far ive only had a wkend fling with a girl that went no where and then another period of interest in another girl until she wanted me to fight for her even after creating a relationship with an american soldier living in S.Korea at the time (she only wanted me coz i was physically there for her). so yeh, fucked her off. lol.
bit of background for what else i have to say. for the last 2-3 years, I've been going to a meditation class. And my sister and i were told last year that we both struggle to find partners since emotionally, we satisfy each other since we have such a strong and close relationship. So now that we live apart, hopefully things will change for the two of us.
So i feel that now I'm living away from her, i can't help but check out nearly every girl that walks past me. The only thing i feel that is stopping me now is my confidence. Confidence in talking to girls other than friends is the one thing i lack most in my personality. I hate it. One aspect that i find defines my lack of confidence is that i don't find myself physically attractive. I'm hoping that once my ankle is better and i can get to the gym, my attractiveness and confidence should take a boost for the better and things can change.
I just wish that more women that aren't married, taken or 40+ would actually find me attractive.
well I'm really running out of things to say now, so i guess thats it.
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Also there's a lot you can do in the gym that won't put pressure on your ankle.,.