pennycandy

So, this is it. I either start my life, or die.

I can't wait around for anyone or anything. I do love Lynn, but I'm not going to compromise who I know I can be for something so uncertain. Yeah. love is great, but you don't know Lynn. Mr. married twice, internet girlfriend (who isn't me, even though it should be....just because he's moved away for a few months), kids from two women, pot smoking, binge drinker, lives in an apartment with his brother, drives a 1990-ish minivan, and has to make money to be happy boy.

I'm just so sick of going stail around here. I'm not living. There is nothing here for me. I don't want to get married, have kids, and take up drinking at the Saloon with the old perverted men who have never been or done as my weekend fun.

So, um. I love you for getting me, at least more than anyone around here, and for not judging me.