i just found out that the husband isn't applying to graduate school in new york until 2008. which means i'm stuck here for a year longer than i thought i was. i don't even know what i'm going to do. it's moved beyond depressing to oppressive. if i move back to nyc without him, our relationship is over. we've already discussed it. neither of us do long distance relationships. i don't understand how this compromise is going to work. what if he waits until 2008 and doesn't get in [despite my best efforts]? what then? i'll HAVE to leave. i can only go back to school once i get back to nyc and the more i put it off, the less easy it's going to be to go back.
i want to move to harlem with lis. i want to go back to school and find a nice job where i'm not ridiculously underpaid. i want to get back to the place i grew up, where i don't have to depend on other people to drive me around. but i love glenn and don't want to leave him. i love our little family and home together. but i'm so unhappy. ugh.
weeellll, i'm going to go eat mexican food and watch the motorcycle diaries.
i want to move to harlem with lis. i want to go back to school and find a nice job where i'm not ridiculously underpaid. i want to get back to the place i grew up, where i don't have to depend on other people to drive me around. but i love glenn and don't want to leave him. i love our little family and home together. but i'm so unhappy. ugh.
weeellll, i'm going to go eat mexican food and watch the motorcycle diaries.
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mercie:
I've been similarly torn recently... I just finally decided to move out of where I was living about 2 weeks ago... as much as I love Scott, he's not my husband OR my boyfriend even, but it hurts a lot. I knew having my own space and time to do what I wanted was best though, in my heart... And if Glenn loves you, he will wait for you. And you will wait for him. Not to say you can't go on with your life, many things can happen inbetween, but it sounds to me like you already kinda made up your mind. Don't let this unhappiness hold you back... I also just left my job yesterday. As comfortable and easy as I had it, it finally had to be done. I'm scared, and unhappy in a lot of ways, but I feel like I'm finally moving forward. Maybe you will too soon. ♥
munke:
Hey now...
