penelopelee

i call my halloween costume: 'Untitled No. 8' (don't give me any drugs). it's me in frilly underwear, a tutu, cowboy boots and a shirt that says, of course, don't give me any drugs. wore it to katie's halloween party last night, which was super fun and not all gross and party-y like the other one i was going to go to and didn't. tonight,...
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when i am mildly, but mostly drunk, i think in french a lot and expensive olives are SO GOOD.

my boss at the warhol made me a necklace out of that metal ball-and-chain string [what is that stuff called?] and a little tiny jingle bell. it's the greatest thing ever. can i talk about how much i love everyone at my job too much? is...
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i look like an intravenous drug addict, but i got all my blood test results back, and the only things wrong with me, according to my super creeptastic doctor, are that i'm 1 pound underweight and i don't wear a sports bra to prevent things like slouching and contact dermatitis from itchy sweaters. hahahaa!

OH! and thanks to jnthn, sound engineer extraordinaire [i didn't...
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today i shaved my legs, but not my armpits, so i could "pass" at the le tigre show. haahaa. jason is the king of awesome for having hooked me up with guestlist tickets for the le tigre/gravy train show at mr. small's tonight. i brought the cutest girl in pittsburgh and danced up a storm. sadly, i was too sleepy to hang out and smoke...
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how does one go about reporting a completely out of line pervy doctor? like, someone who repeatedly tries to pressure you into letting them give you a pelvic exam and INSISTS on doing breast exams when you tell them you have a perfectly good gynecologist who, only weeks ago, did all that good stuff. and like, how does getting an allergic reaction to an itchy...
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my new shrink appointment is tomorrow afternoon. hopefully, i can talk both a klonopin and an adderal prescription out of her. uppers and downers! it's like controlling the thermostat of your brain.

my saturday night was so boring that i'm kinda regretting not going to the helloween party. there were a bunch of people there i wanted to meet. ah, well.

back to work! i...
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i hate coming home just drunk enough to be more bored coming home alone than you would have if you had not gone out and gotten drunk and just stayed home.

did that make any sense?

i mean, i want someone to drink tea with or trounce in soul calibur.

oh god. i think i love ada more than invitation to a beheading. i'm rereading it for the first time since the tenth grade and every. fucking. sentence. breaks my heart. with ecstacy. i was sitting at the front desk of the museum reading it all day trying not to CRY. i think it may very well be the best thing nabokov has ever written.

my 14-year-old girlfriend didn't visit me today. how very sad. maybe she's too shy.

i went to the blonde redhead show last night with julie, who i recently made up with [as in, she's not being a crazy bitch anymore]. while there, some chunky librarian-looking girl came up to julie and i and started yelling at us for talking too loud during the opening bands....
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the boy who, to put it mildly, stole my virginity from me back when i was 18 just wrote to me on friendster. and one of my other friends from high school called me today to tell me he wrote to her, too. i'm struck with the desire to write back to him, be friends with him again. he used to be one of the...
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kevin was talking to me yesterday about wanting to "spread his seed" and asked if i wanted to have his baby. "i don't even have to stick it in you," he said. "you can do the turkey baster thing." he wants to get his good genetic material out into the world. i told him wes has first dibs on my uterus.

then we went out...
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though it's kind of ridndent, i'm taping my boobs down to go to this gender stereotype party at chatham tonight. i went and bought fancy expensive suspenders at the big department store downtown, but the costume shop closed before i could get there to pick up a stick-on moustache. i have NO idea how to draw facial hair on with make-up. all my years of...
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