pelirojo

Last night was horrible, then today was worst. I've been very depressed and angry the last few days. I feel a bit like I was when I was in my early twenties. I don't want to be like that again. When I finally got out of bed today, I at least won a kings hockey jersey on ebay for like 13 bucks! so yeah me! Then in the afternoon I went to my parents. I can't bring my dog Violet there, cuz she attacked my parents dog in August, and that was when I tried to break it up, and she bit the fuck out of my right middle finger. I did break it up and my parents dog was just really shooken up. I bleed all over the place and was intense pain. Whatever, anyway I visited my parents to borrow some cat food and toilet paper. My dog also attacked my cat, so now he sleeps in my basement and I blocked off the backyard for him. I have flashbacks of my cat in my dog's mouth. My cat didn't make any noise when it happened. He's ok just shaken up, but I don't see him too often. Back to the story, I forgot my phone at my house, when I visited my parents, and just like any fucked up day, I paid for it again, and my dog chewed the hell out of my new phone. Bitch! It still kinda works, not well, and it was cheap. She chewed up my old phone a month ago and I lost a bunch of contacts and some naked girl pics. It is so frustrating having a mental illness. It comes and goes, gets better than worse, and the side effects from ECT and my meds bother me almost as much as my illness. When I tell people my memory is horrible because of ECT I fucking hate it when they say my memory is bad too. I do my best to actually listen to people, and not just think about what to say next while the other person is speaking.