u know I'm happy I live in a place and it feels like the more I get the less I need to get older I miss my best friends I miss my country where I was born but I live in north America buses cars fancy houses party's winter summer and so many things to do like a bit the story of my own I was twenty and it feels like a big mistake why coz I love myself always understanding things that always get bashed life isn't fair far from it I just think about where I live and wish I was Japanese so I could live in Tokyo fucking Tokyo !!!! I could be akira or a girl and be ghost in the shell I mean I get close to heroin and its like letting me finally alone I got to meet Darcy from the smashing pumpkins she's so cute I love Fiona Apple I love my dreams I got to get laid and be whit completely insane ppl in a hospital in my dreams ... Then I'm a little man single and need a wife I'm not sure if going back to where I live is going to help me a lot this city is controlled by bastards a little like u walk do a return on ur steps and figure it all out just to let a pretty girl be herself I'm not close to hang out again whit ppl there are so many ways I know u can screw someone next step is to realize there is worst like right now and this guy complaining about been ugly or just politically correct I could say all this at a party here in Montreal and no one would know I'm so free but I keep always envies to be unlucky or can't have the peace and feelings for my ex girlfriend I could yell and the little mind of a rat would understand it all I feel like a rat or a unicorn but when I go out at night its like not giving a shait I know for a fact there will be so many things left here I just wouldn't believe something else moments left for awesome music winters summers and kids playing outside baby's making the best jokes evar cats been so great dogs get confused by it is my life that hasn't got one small moment where I could believe there is a god just rules made out I just exit every time when I'm ready to flirt again just not right why the fuck would I be flirting if a girl doesn't want me I mean the suburbs where I live isn't exactly all knowing where I go to just slack off meaning girls suck