so today started whit all what it comes whit it im just to damn fake to even think i belong here it usualy the talks i get from people i know that make everything seem to be alright when actualy it is or not it doesnt mather i prefer to look for a girlfriend and stay at home while i can its to compete against people i dont know what makes me want to be more into grunge then anything else ive lived a long time whitout been to distant to what makes me happy i found many things most of them are dreams drugz and bad friends the days are always the same ending up in my bed wishing for all sorts of things but i cant just stand on one thing like all that constently gets borode you know its like having to be a messed up kid living in a rich country that forgets what shes all about i remember this girl when i was 22 she was so freacking gorgeous super slim tits that hang out out of her chest like ice cream melted under the city its a expression to say i could had touch them as much as i could lick them all kind of stuff never got tired and always hard i couldnt say much about her ass and thats alright she knew me from first sight like i never could realy told her something she didnt care about but mostly it was what it was a long argument about why i cam from another country to live where she takes a dump every now and then the first date was alright coz i asked her out i think she asked me out a like 2 or 3 times but the cool part was that we didnt have to mingle whit the rest of the people who knew her and knew me i hate mingle conversations its super dumb i like it when u be sincere and have a knowledge of your own now that i think about it it may come up while i knew her i thought that was what i standed for for a long time but no im all about been cool or gnarly i can fuck u up as much as i can take my dog for a walk finaly i reach the point i wasnt going to see her again shes a goth well established as for me im mormon and realy think about more then getting screwed in every freacking way coz i realy dont take the time to make u think i care for talks during long hot night summers then to look to climb a tree and finish my day as everyone else its common to say things but it gets worst when actualy never anyone ever feels them like u could be somewhere else all the time not realy funny but if only you could talk to me do it like your standing on the other line in order to make yourself get hit by a car or simply tell a joke in the end its just a reward u get that u got so much shit in ur mind there was no way u could let things go like saturday my soccer team lost they are in second division its the B and well u sure dont know much about futbol coz argentina is the best one in the world but finaly i thought hey why not give it a second chance to the most gorgeous girl i know a goth gurl or a second chance to my best friend a french dude i know since im 12 then i realize i was working hard taking out the trash washing dishes passing the mop taking orders and the most tiny thing i ever wanted was to let myself look after someone to care and share stuff today is great im kind of not leting things be like other ppl never did and i can tell my cat and dog its not what u like that makes me be me but the endless thought of dying