pelafina

So recently I've been back and forth about my job.
I don't plan on going anywhere. I do however feel a little to micro
managed half then time then the other half completely left without
boundry. Its is not exactly a happy feeling.
See when I started at cottonwood everyone else on management quit. So
that left me really stressed out. (Not to menton its...
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450am

I think

Ill save their head

Ill pack my bags

Ill find my mistakes and right the past wrongs


My heart is sinks to the depths of my bowels
My heart flakes away a little more

I think I miss sleeping
I miss brutal honesty

This boy makes me remember
Why I hated certin parts in the first place

I didn't save a life...
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It would sound terrible written down. Words like that never make a
female sound tough, or hopeful. And in fact it is awful. I won't try to
make it out like I didn't tear up a bit, because I did.
For the last few weeks now its been comming. I should have pretended
longer, that I couldn't see it comming. But I could and did....
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Getting ready for work. Yep, waiting for the shower to heat up.
Ugh. I cannot wait for these early shifts to be over.

*n

I didn't ask for your rib
It was just given to me
In that same thought
I didn't ask to love you
It just played out this way

Just like
The other woman dosent have to be a woman
To wreck my home

Or

I don't have to say a word to be the stong one
Because my quiet loathing speaks better for me



Just...
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Sitting on fire
With no words to give up for offering
Not out of lack of vocabulary
But because there isn't any point
Why recycle the effort for the same outcome
*n

So I believe I have become completely anti social. I have no desire to
be out in public at all. In fact if there was a way I could just do yoga
on my spare time (well and read and write) then I would.
I haven't drank in weeks as well. I'm not sure if this is going to be a
no drinking forever thing,...
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I really hate people sometimes.
Ugh.
*n