peighton

so today has been awesome. i missed my job interview. good one. i went to the wrong golden nugget on irving park and was ten minutes late and my potential employer had already left. i am so fucking sick of applying for shit jobs. no one will hire me anyways (even when i am on time or early)--for whatever reason, i have no clue why. people seem to really like me and act like they want to hire me, then dont. i cant even get a goddamn dogwalking job. soooooooo, i may have to move back to the black hole that is raleig. since my roommates hated chicago so much, we are breaking our lease and must be out by april instead of july. awesome. that is the exact opposite of what i ever thought would happen. if i stay here i will probably end up working at white castle or on the street corner. i hardly know anyone and i havent been really excited about hanging out with the people i have met or they tend to think i am a taxi service and not their friend. it just hasnt worked out at all. i just hate the idea of giving up and moving back. it seems so pathetic. i am just not sure if i want to sign another lease here though. and a friend of mine is planning on moving to austin at the end of the summer and wants me to go with her. so i really have no idea what i am supposed to do. there are pros and cons to everything and none outweigh the other. and no one will tell me their opinion, they keep saying it could go either way really and to do what will make me happy blah blah blah .
so i guess at this point i must decide which is less painful.. to be broke and alone in a city i hardly know or move back to a city i loathe with people i love and people i hate and maybe have a little money.
i guess you could say i am having a bad day. hope yall are having a better one.