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I really dislike this state. Why? Because winter should be about snow. So far I have seen it ONCE here damn it. AND the summer was unfuckingbearable!!!!!! Yeah that's right, THAT JUST HAPPENED!!!!!! But it's whatever. GOD I don't want to get up to cook. I swear I should have been born a dude. No seriously. Let me explain why. I DETEST any and all housework. I am willing to do the laundry BUT I will be damned if I fold any of it. Soooo it's currently chilen in my couch, on my floor in my closet or in the dryer. DISHES??? Ummm it takes an act of congress for me to wash them. Do not worry peeps I do not have a mountain of them though. I have an AMAZING dishwasher!! IT ACTUALLY WORKS? Cooking.... I think not. I am actually gonna cook bacon and eggs for the kiddo soon and then make myself a smoothie for breakfast. If you look in my freezer you will find microwavable food and oodles of noodles in my pantry. I am NOT a fan of cooking. I like dining out sir. Indian is my absolute fave thing to chow down on. Sooooooooo good. I'm lying legit MEXICAN is my fave then Indian. And that's not the only reason I say I should be a dude. Emotionally speaking the only way that you will get me to be a sweetheart is to be madly in love with you. THEN I am pretty much a softie. BUT you gotta really keep me on my toes. I will admit one of my problems is the chase... I love it. if I see it going somewhere but if you then become a doormat (which happens often) I will wipe my dirty shitty feet all over you. This by all means does not mean TREAT ME LIKE SHIT. It means have your own life and want to be part of mine. I am terrible at being someone else' reason for being. I love men that are confident as fuck but are damn proud to have me by their side. I like a little jealousy but only in the way that if someone is trying to "holla" at me you will make damn sure that you come up to me and plant a huge one on me and tell them to step off. BUT I will fucken stab you if you want to get at me like it's my fault some dude is talking to me. Remember this shit. If I am WITH YOU WITH YOU, then that means you are pretty fucken spectacular. I wouldn't get serious with you if I thought you were just somewhat ok. Case in point. Currently speaking to an old flame. We are yet to have sex cause I am finding myself not attracted to the way too sweet side of him. The guy is amazing, hot and very much financially stable. WTF can I not just go with that?? Oh that's right cause I have morals and going into something that important knowing full well that I am going to tear your little heart out within a couple of months is NO BUENO. If you are a shit head I might break your heart cause I can, but if you are a legit good person I just can't do it. I know I am completely fucked up but I just can't find the happy medium. ALSO I thought I found my happy medium but hey guess Karma is a bitch. Honestly though I have found myself believing less and less in that. My first love cheated on me and broke my heart for no reason. Where is the good karma in that? My mom as far as I know has been the most amazing person I have ever met. Doesnt drink, smoke or gossip about anyone. What happens to her?? She needs a new liver, but yet my FATHER is the alcoholic. Go figure. It's like karma is a fucken joke. You do the shitty crap in life and you reap the benefits. Don't worry peeps I'm not saying I'm trying to go over to the dark side lol I just feel that karma is a joke. Although I believe in God a little more today than I did last week. I prayed for something that was completely important and it went better than expected. So hey, I guess when we really need him, he is there for us. Sorry not trying to drown anyone in my religion. I personally haven't attended church since basic training and before that since I was about 15. But hey it doesn't mean I don't believe. Just get lost sometimes. have a great day everyone time for that damn smoothie!!