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Alright so I need to write this down because if I don't, I am going to go crazy.

TheLastbeliever asked how I was doing? Well until this afternoon, pretty well. Well you know how life is never just peachy and easy, well my life has surprised me again. I check my email when I wake up and there is this email from my ex-boyfriend. This is the ex that I have always loved and he was the first everything in my life. Well it ended ok but it only ended because he moved back to England. It wasn't for lack of love, well that was 3 years ago.

He wrote me and said it was urgent that I call him and that he is planning to come see me on WEDNESDAY, of this week. If you wanted to ever see me get scared and excited all at one time that would have been the time to do it. Well I find out from calling him that he has broken up with his girlfriend and he needs a vacation. He decides that Michigan is far enough away and wants to come visit me for a week.

So taking it at face value, it is great that I get to see this friend after 3 years. But then again, this is and was the guy that I have had feelings for, for over 6 years. I am scared, excited, sick to my stomach and completely lost. Things have finally fallin' into place in my life and this happens.

I am just going to think of it as my friend coming to visit and we will have a good time.

But guys I need some advice. How the hell would you handle this? Any suggestions on what we could do? I have to be a good hostess. Anyway I need some kind words and relaxing ones too. Please if you could do this for me please do it now.

Much love to everyone