Wednesday Dec 15, 2004

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Yeah so I have this new song that I really love...read it. I think many can relate to it.

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
Ive learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I dont get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way
And its not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know thats weakness in your eyes
Im forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart cant possibly break
When it wasnt even whole to start with

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
Because of you
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I dont get hurt

Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I dont know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
Im ashamed of my life because its empty
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you

Love to all kiss
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cdt21:
I've had that, the best i can do with it is remember what it's like when it was good with them because that's always true; stuff affecting them now may be what's causing them to be that way. Otherwise I try and think of them from a third-party viewpoint/ sort of back off to like first meeting them again. Sometimes you should just protect yourself and just walk away from it for a while especially if it's making you ill 'cos that's helping no one. The distance is therapeutic. Be strong

Funny how I don't take my own advice though, now why is that?

You tell me? frown
cdt21:
I tthink the evil thing is like a catharsis so by the time I get there I'm quite amiable and ready to be sociable. The only problem is when there are other people in the line of fire in which case I do explain it to them but that's not much comfort for them, a bit like telling them that your cat farts biggrin

Well I'm delighted that your strategy with your friend seems to be working - true friendships are durable so this sounds like a good'un smile [ if you're a carer though then it's very difficult to distance ]

The dinner is in 3hrs now so feeling better about it and quite hungry to be honest! so I shall now be glad to be there , I took time off this pm - I'll update in a minute.

Keen to see which SG girl is your recommendation of the day today wink

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