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I have always thought of myself as being indecisive. Almost to a fault. I turn and turn over in my head a mind boggling number of decisions. It is usually then either too late, or I am forced to make a decision that I never wanted to make.

Now this relates to almost everything that has probably gone wrong in my life. My terrible luck with the ladies. My lack of a driver's license. My lack of a car. My lack of a good education. And my lack of a good job.

While I was at work I was toiling over the decision to go back to college. Soon it will be april then it will be may and then I will have to wait till next year to apply to college because it will of been too late.

But more importantly what am I supposed to do? What am I supposed to study. Where am I going to study it? How am I going to study it? Why am I going to study it?

I tell myself that rationally I need a better job. I need to get paid better. I need more experience, more credentials. The only way to get that is to go back to college. It would solve my lack of all of the above by correcting what I should of done in the first place, chosen a real major!

So that's where I am. I have no clue what to do and the process begins itself anew.