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I don't know what to do with myself. I am so tired and depressed hearing about people and what they are doing with their life that it just makes me realize more that I have no clue.

I want to go back to college I would like a real job. But both are completely unrealistic to me. I do not see how I can go back to college when I cannot even decide on what to study. I know I need more education to get a better job but I cannot even decide on a real career path.

It is agonizing to me. I try to think of something I'd like to do and time after time I draw a blank.

I want to go back to college because I miss being around women my age. I miss be able to have the option to do something any time of the night or day. Or just to do something I find fascinating. But graduate school is different I have to choose something to study that will affect the rest of my life. A ghastly prospect to me.

I am frightened at having to choose. I am tired of being told choose what you love or do what you love and the money will follow. This to me is so outragiously absurd and silly. I just do not feel like I love anything