peachysailors

have you ever loved some one sooo much, you gave her/him your love and soul and everything you did was for her/him... yeah...it sucks! IT FUCKIN SUCKS!!!!!!!!! WHY WOULD SOME ONE NOT ACKNOLEDGE THAT!
WHY WOULD SOMEONE JUST TEAR YOUR FUCKIN HEART OUT PUT IT IN A BLENDER, MAKE YOU DRINK IT, AND WHEN YOU PUKE IT OUT SHE/HE STOPMPS ON THAT SHIT AND THEN BLENDS IT SOME MORE, BOILS IT MAKES YOU DRINK IT ONE MORE TIME THEN SEW YOUR MOUTH SHUT SO THAT YOU HAVE TO LIVE WITH THAT FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!
...why...
i slashed myself up pretty badlyafter she called me just now...and the pain from the blade felt much more better than the pain she has just caused me.
i don't want to lose her friendship she is the coolest person i know, if it wasn't for her...i would have stayed in my closed minded, "only hip hop is cool", ignorant, stupid state of mind.
but she helped me. helped me become the person i am today...